This happens a lot. I have a wave of inspiration to write. So I may not write anything narrative for a bit, but just post lyrics. I have ideas for lyrics, titles, and messages that they will portray. I think they are a lot better than the stuff I used to write. I feel as though I have broken though to anotehr side of writing I had been trying to find for a while, and have finally established my footings. Only good stuff to come..
“Torn and Tattered”
I lie awake still shaking,
As a cold sweat drips down my face
I thought I saw you beside me
Like a ghostly image that wasn’t there
Still chasing down the fragments of my life
But we’re both still far behind
Take me, take me
So far away from here
Save me, same me
I just can’t be left alone
We are the ones torn and tattered
We can’t watch this slip away
We still stand, broken and shattered,
We can’t just lets us slip away
All the mistakes we’re making
Leads us right back to our disgrace
Like a refugee we will flee
Even though we know we’re beyond repair
Words we say we sometimes don’t really mean
It’s just a hole that we dig
Take me, take me
So far away from here
Save me, same me
I just can’t be left alone
We are the ones torn and tattered
We can’t watch this slip away
We still stand, broken and shattered,
We can’t just lets us slip away
Gonna follow my own dreams
And lead my own life
Leaving the past behind me
Can’t sit here and waste my time
On the ones still drifting
I’m leaving all this shit behind
Take me, take me
So far away from here
Save me, same me
I think I just found my way
We are the ones torn and tattered
We can’t watch this slip away
We still stand, broken and shattered,
We can’t just lets us slip away
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
Joe Somebody
I've kind of found a wave of creativity, and started writing lyrics again. I like them much better than what I used to be writing. They seem to have more of a meaning, and more worth it.
“Joe Somebody”
He’s content with the 9-5
Stuck in the town he was born
Making just enough to survive
But the horizon he remains torn
All the what if’s, and could have been’s
Follow him with every step that he takes
Out on the road between here
And that place called no where
That’s where you’ll find him
That’s where you’ll find him
Hey Joe,
Where you going now
Chasing down the setting sun
Hey Joe
Is there a better place out there
Somewhere you can come undone
Hey Joe
You’re not the only one numb
You’re not the only one
Hey Joe Somebody
The days of stage dives and black outs
How far away they do seem
I guess we all can have our doubts
And live by what we used to call dreams
Tonight, lets dance like no one is watching
To the hopes and dreams we used to have
Out on the road between here
And that place called no where
That’s where you’ll find us
That’s where you’ll find us
Hey Joe,
Where you going now
Chasing down the setting sun
Hey Joe
Is there a better place out there
Somewhere you can come undone
Hey Joe
You’re not the only one numb
You’re not the only one
Hey Joe Somebody
Lets be somebody!
Tonight, lets dance like no one is watching
To the hopes and dreams we used to have
Hey Joe,
Where you going now
Chasing down the setting sun
Hey Joe
Is there a better place out there
Somewhere you can come undone
Hey Joe
You’re not the only one numb
You’re not the only one
Hey Joe Somebody
Lets be somebody!
“Joe Somebody”
He’s content with the 9-5
Stuck in the town he was born
Making just enough to survive
But the horizon he remains torn
All the what if’s, and could have been’s
Follow him with every step that he takes
Out on the road between here
And that place called no where
That’s where you’ll find him
That’s where you’ll find him
Hey Joe,
Where you going now
Chasing down the setting sun
Hey Joe
Is there a better place out there
Somewhere you can come undone
Hey Joe
You’re not the only one numb
You’re not the only one
Hey Joe Somebody
The days of stage dives and black outs
How far away they do seem
I guess we all can have our doubts
And live by what we used to call dreams
Tonight, lets dance like no one is watching
To the hopes and dreams we used to have
Out on the road between here
And that place called no where
That’s where you’ll find us
That’s where you’ll find us
Hey Joe,
Where you going now
Chasing down the setting sun
Hey Joe
Is there a better place out there
Somewhere you can come undone
Hey Joe
You’re not the only one numb
You’re not the only one
Hey Joe Somebody
Lets be somebody!
Tonight, lets dance like no one is watching
To the hopes and dreams we used to have
Hey Joe,
Where you going now
Chasing down the setting sun
Hey Joe
Is there a better place out there
Somewhere you can come undone
Hey Joe
You’re not the only one numb
You’re not the only one
Hey Joe Somebody
Lets be somebody!
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Recoil (Social Decay)
"Recoil (Social Decay)"
As a smile slips across her face
Like the dwindling sun today
A sight that will never be seen again
She said, "It's a change of pace."
Break free from this social decay
Callused fingers, grasping a black pen
What do we say when there's nothing at all
How do we play, when we're meant to fall (Lets go)
We'll be okay somewhere tonight,
Under a draped sky we sit
Holding onto all that we ever were
Strike the match, let your heart ignite
They'll break us but we'll never admit
If love is a crime, we're the saboteur
What do we say when there's nothing at all
How do we play, when we're meant to fall
What do we say when there's nothing at all
How do we play, when we're meant to fall
As a smile slips across her face
Like the dwindling sun today
A sight that will never be seen again
As a smile slips across her face
Like the dwindling sun today
A sight that will never be seen again
She said, "It's a change of pace."
Break free from this social decay
Callused fingers, grasping a black pen
What do we say when there's nothing at all
How do we play, when we're meant to fall (Lets go)
We'll be okay somewhere tonight,
Under a draped sky we sit
Holding onto all that we ever were
Strike the match, let your heart ignite
They'll break us but we'll never admit
If love is a crime, we're the saboteur
What do we say when there's nothing at all
How do we play, when we're meant to fall
What do we say when there's nothing at all
How do we play, when we're meant to fall
As a smile slips across her face
Like the dwindling sun today
A sight that will never be seen again
Let Me Drown In The Rain
The more and more you start telling your self that the lie you are living is a reality, you really start to believe it. When the people around you know who you really are, and you have come to live that lie, who are you really? When you have a path that you are continuously taking is being made up every step of the way. The focus of the dream that you once had has lost its clarity, it is now just a blurry image of what it used to be. The lie you live, is now your reality, and there is no escaping it. A dream you can't wake up from, that at first seems like a good pleasant dream, will soon turn to a nightmare.
I've seen this way too much. People trying so hard to be something that they are not. I went through that phase, thankfully I found myself before I got too lost. I know who I am, even though a select few will offer dissent, but they don't really have much of a foundation to stand upon. I was lost I really was. I see how some people have gone too gar and they are drowning in the deep end and no one is helping them. Why, because they have burnt every bridge that they have ever made. When you talk behind everyone you care about's back, you have no spine, and you are in fact a coward.
I see now how people I used to associate myself with are trying so hard to be something that they are not. There is so much you can do, and try to lie about. I thought about the songs that we sung, and the lives we tried to sell as our own, and how stupid they really were. I wrote stuff that was based off of total crap, a lot like Joe Elliot when he write "Wasted" he said he had seen enough movies to know what it must be like at 17. I was the same way. Then most was based off of something that happened to me personally. Now we could try to go to an attitude we tried to sell, that of "badasses," no one believed it, and I could tell. No body in the band was in fact someone that you could call a "badass." We were just a bunch of wanna-be's, and going the route of never-was's.
A picture came to me today, and I wouldn't help but laugh. When you lead with your chin, you might as well put up a banner up and say, "yes, we are trying this hard to pass off a product we are not." It goes simply to say I see what poseurs really look like. I've only read about them. I hate to tell them that the 80's rock thing died somewhere in 1990, and the little revival it had came and went, and never took off. If they try and go metal, I noticed something really funny about that. There isn't a scene out here for a classic metal kind of thing, that died too. Lets not nostalgia, lets be more original, and try to make something new with the pieces we are given, not try to live in the footsteps of someone that already did it.
What people have to understand, now that I know for sure that I am moving to Flagstaff, the band would have ended in Dec anyways. I have contacted, and met up with a guitar player, and we seem to have the right stuff together, but I am concerned with starting a new group in Phoenix before I move. I don't want to get into something too serious. I would have left, and said the same thing, cease and desist with the name, and the lyrics. It would have been that simple. For now, I can just sit on the sidelines and laugh, and watch the train wreck.
Give me a scene where honesty and emotion are applauded, and not laughed at. What Phoenix has been is a scene based off of who can sell the biggest lie, and who can make up the lamest story to make them seem bigger than what they really are. There is a reason why this city will never have a music scene that will flourish, we are always following too.
That's all for now. Keep reading from your dimly lit room, and keep telling your self you are bigger. You are not.-SS
I've seen this way too much. People trying so hard to be something that they are not. I went through that phase, thankfully I found myself before I got too lost. I know who I am, even though a select few will offer dissent, but they don't really have much of a foundation to stand upon. I was lost I really was. I see how some people have gone too gar and they are drowning in the deep end and no one is helping them. Why, because they have burnt every bridge that they have ever made. When you talk behind everyone you care about's back, you have no spine, and you are in fact a coward.
I see now how people I used to associate myself with are trying so hard to be something that they are not. There is so much you can do, and try to lie about. I thought about the songs that we sung, and the lives we tried to sell as our own, and how stupid they really were. I wrote stuff that was based off of total crap, a lot like Joe Elliot when he write "Wasted" he said he had seen enough movies to know what it must be like at 17. I was the same way. Then most was based off of something that happened to me personally. Now we could try to go to an attitude we tried to sell, that of "badasses," no one believed it, and I could tell. No body in the band was in fact someone that you could call a "badass." We were just a bunch of wanna-be's, and going the route of never-was's.
A picture came to me today, and I wouldn't help but laugh. When you lead with your chin, you might as well put up a banner up and say, "yes, we are trying this hard to pass off a product we are not." It goes simply to say I see what poseurs really look like. I've only read about them. I hate to tell them that the 80's rock thing died somewhere in 1990, and the little revival it had came and went, and never took off. If they try and go metal, I noticed something really funny about that. There isn't a scene out here for a classic metal kind of thing, that died too. Lets not nostalgia, lets be more original, and try to make something new with the pieces we are given, not try to live in the footsteps of someone that already did it.
What people have to understand, now that I know for sure that I am moving to Flagstaff, the band would have ended in Dec anyways. I have contacted, and met up with a guitar player, and we seem to have the right stuff together, but I am concerned with starting a new group in Phoenix before I move. I don't want to get into something too serious. I would have left, and said the same thing, cease and desist with the name, and the lyrics. It would have been that simple. For now, I can just sit on the sidelines and laugh, and watch the train wreck.
Give me a scene where honesty and emotion are applauded, and not laughed at. What Phoenix has been is a scene based off of who can sell the biggest lie, and who can make up the lamest story to make them seem bigger than what they really are. There is a reason why this city will never have a music scene that will flourish, we are always following too.
That's all for now. Keep reading from your dimly lit room, and keep telling your self you are bigger. You are not.-SS
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Mindcrime
"Mindcrime"
Puppeteers come walking in
We dangle here on a string
There’s no where left to begin
Words we can’t seem to sing
Like a past we’re still chasing down
Dead end streets, in a dead end town
It’s the fuel that were feeding
It’s the Hate that their breeding
It’s time to stand up,
And sing for something, (Something deep inside)
Let go of what your after (As lightening fills your eyes)
Common take a swing
And against it all we will rise
It turns back into the same story
Mindless word coming from the screen
With fist held high we‘ll run for glory
Even though our minds are clean
Don’ fall, we’ll break the morning
No rules, no head of warning
It’s time to stand up,
And sing for something, (Something deep inside)
Let go of what your after (As lightening fills your eyes)
Common take a swing
And against it all we will rise
Like a fire, we’ll brighten the night
No more cause for black and white
Together we all stand the same
No fingers to point, no place of blame
Just fight for what feels right
{solo}
It’s time to stand up,
And sing for something, (Something deep inside)
Let go of what your after (As lightening fills your eyes)
Common take a swing
And against it all we will rise
Puppeteers come walking in
We dangle here on a string
There’s no where left to begin
Words we can’t seem to sing
Like a past we’re still chasing down
Dead end streets, in a dead end town
It’s the fuel that were feeding
It’s the Hate that their breeding
It’s time to stand up,
And sing for something, (Something deep inside)
Let go of what your after (As lightening fills your eyes)
Common take a swing
And against it all we will rise
It turns back into the same story
Mindless word coming from the screen
With fist held high we‘ll run for glory
Even though our minds are clean
Don’ fall, we’ll break the morning
No rules, no head of warning
It’s time to stand up,
And sing for something, (Something deep inside)
Let go of what your after (As lightening fills your eyes)
Common take a swing
And against it all we will rise
Like a fire, we’ll brighten the night
No more cause for black and white
Together we all stand the same
No fingers to point, no place of blame
Just fight for what feels right
{solo}
It’s time to stand up,
And sing for something, (Something deep inside)
Let go of what your after (As lightening fills your eyes)
Common take a swing
And against it all we will rise
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Rise Saved My Life
It is something that I have been thinking about lately. Something that has astonished me, and what I have become. It's something that I like a lot more than what I could have become if I kept down the same road. It is quite astonishing really, and who planted all these thoughts in my head, Rise Against. Weird, I know, but I have taken a huge liking to this band for many reasons. They represent so much more than just music, and that is as admirable.
What was I doing, the past two years of my life have been tumultuous to say the least. It all goes back to something that happened two years ago today (8/17), after that it has been a downhill ride. I was someone I didn't really like. I started being more and more around alcohol, and drugs, which for the longest time I despised, now it was something regular. I wasn't drinking a lot but I can tell that if I kept going the way that I was going, it would have developed into something much worse. I lost a lot of respect for things, it was everything, I used to embrace the small and enjoy the simple. It wasn't so much anymore. Then I started listening to Rise Against.
It wasn't over night that I was hooked of course, and it took almost 2 years for me to get the message. The first time I remember hearing them was in 2004, when "Give It All" was all over MTV. I didn't like it because of Tim's afro thing he had. I also remember a baseball teammate singing the chorus for "Swing Life Away" in 2006 at their locker before a game. Then it wasn't until the summer of 2008 when I met Kyle I heard Rise Against again. She showed me them, and the song "Re-Education (Through Labor)," and I remember saying that song wasn't band and had an 80's hard rock vibe. She also showed me Sum 41, which I was aware of too, but never took interest in. Sure enough, I went though a hard time after we split and then I heard two Rise Against songs on the radio "Ready To Fall," and "The Good Left Undone." Those were nothing to the next song I heard by them, I then caught "Audience of One" on the radio in Febuary of 2009, and it spoke to me. I started downloading as much Rise as I could. I got hooked.
After year or so of listening to them, it has struck me as more than just music. It has become something that I could rally around, and something I can look up to.The class that they have, their lack of drug use. I was into the whole 80's rock thing, and I look at these guys now in bands like Motley Crue, and Def Leppard and see what a lifestyle like that can lead to. That's not me. I did my research on the band, and started more and more liking what they stood for. They really stood up for people like me, and the person that can't be heard. They care as much a s a band at their stature can care. The band I was in were losing touch with where we stood in the world, I knew where I was, but we were getting lost. We were rebels without a cause, and they are still just that. I have causes, I have beliefs, and I have class.
What do I do. I change everything. Long hair is gone, I have a beard again, for now. Depends on how I feel it may change. I wear different clothes. I don't wear 80's band tee-shirts and jeans anymore. It is an image that has escaped me, and I am going to let run on forever. I never want it back. This is all because a band turned me away from the dark path that I was going. I see thing brighter again. Things were getting dim where I was. I have drive to actually do something with my life, hence me moving out in 6 months. Its all because of this band, listening to them, and getting what they have been saying has really gotten me straightened out. It feels good to know where you are going to go for now. I was sick of no direction.
I don't know where the other road would have taken me. I was in a band that was going no where, even though we liked to believe other wise. Unfortunately I really screwed up my social life with that band. It wasn't that popular, so the only friends I had were those in the band. Looking back at it I really don't think that all of them I really could have considered a friend, but rather just an acquaintances. That is something that will recover.
"Lets not play games and stall in nostalgia, lets live for today.. Better yet lets live and create our future now."
Night-SS
What was I doing, the past two years of my life have been tumultuous to say the least. It all goes back to something that happened two years ago today (8/17), after that it has been a downhill ride. I was someone I didn't really like. I started being more and more around alcohol, and drugs, which for the longest time I despised, now it was something regular. I wasn't drinking a lot but I can tell that if I kept going the way that I was going, it would have developed into something much worse. I lost a lot of respect for things, it was everything, I used to embrace the small and enjoy the simple. It wasn't so much anymore. Then I started listening to Rise Against.
It wasn't over night that I was hooked of course, and it took almost 2 years for me to get the message. The first time I remember hearing them was in 2004, when "Give It All" was all over MTV. I didn't like it because of Tim's afro thing he had. I also remember a baseball teammate singing the chorus for "Swing Life Away" in 2006 at their locker before a game. Then it wasn't until the summer of 2008 when I met Kyle I heard Rise Against again. She showed me them, and the song "Re-Education (Through Labor)," and I remember saying that song wasn't band and had an 80's hard rock vibe. She also showed me Sum 41, which I was aware of too, but never took interest in. Sure enough, I went though a hard time after we split and then I heard two Rise Against songs on the radio "Ready To Fall," and "The Good Left Undone." Those were nothing to the next song I heard by them, I then caught "Audience of One" on the radio in Febuary of 2009, and it spoke to me. I started downloading as much Rise as I could. I got hooked.
After year or so of listening to them, it has struck me as more than just music. It has become something that I could rally around, and something I can look up to.The class that they have, their lack of drug use. I was into the whole 80's rock thing, and I look at these guys now in bands like Motley Crue, and Def Leppard and see what a lifestyle like that can lead to. That's not me. I did my research on the band, and started more and more liking what they stood for. They really stood up for people like me, and the person that can't be heard. They care as much a s a band at their stature can care. The band I was in were losing touch with where we stood in the world, I knew where I was, but we were getting lost. We were rebels without a cause, and they are still just that. I have causes, I have beliefs, and I have class.
What do I do. I change everything. Long hair is gone, I have a beard again, for now. Depends on how I feel it may change. I wear different clothes. I don't wear 80's band tee-shirts and jeans anymore. It is an image that has escaped me, and I am going to let run on forever. I never want it back. This is all because a band turned me away from the dark path that I was going. I see thing brighter again. Things were getting dim where I was. I have drive to actually do something with my life, hence me moving out in 6 months. Its all because of this band, listening to them, and getting what they have been saying has really gotten me straightened out. It feels good to know where you are going to go for now. I was sick of no direction.
I don't know where the other road would have taken me. I was in a band that was going no where, even though we liked to believe other wise. Unfortunately I really screwed up my social life with that band. It wasn't that popular, so the only friends I had were those in the band. Looking back at it I really don't think that all of them I really could have considered a friend, but rather just an acquaintances. That is something that will recover.
"Lets not play games and stall in nostalgia, lets live for today.. Better yet lets live and create our future now."
Night-SS
Sunday, August 15, 2010
Built To Fail
I was going to write this earlier, but then the thought slipped through my fingers. I just reoccurred to me after reading a post on, none other than the state of Arizona.
I remember moving out to this hell hole of a state in 2000, there was promise, there was hope and it was a new beginning. Everything seemed like it was going to be better. No more crowding, more job openings, and a better chance at just about everything else. That was 10 years ago this past June. Then again, everything seemed a lot better in the summer of 2000. The economy was booming, spirits were actually high about everything. They wasn't a sense of fear with every step that we took. Things were okay.
Now come back to reality for a moment. That was 10 years ago. This part of the country, Phoenix, seemed like it was on the upside for everything. It seemed like a place where you could bring your family, and really settle down here. Kind of that old adage, head west young man. Now in the year 2010, I was blessed with going through some of the worst education in the country, brought up in a state where there is nothing to do (besides get into drugs to escape, which I will not go into), a state where health care if fledgling, and there are endless immigrant and job problems. So what looks better now?
I've been thinking the last few days about what it must be like to be back in New York, and be in the area where I grew up. What that must have been like. It's almost 3,000 miles away. From what I've seen things are a lot better back there, I don't care about snow, I don't care about rain. I just want out of this god damned state. The second I learn to fly I am never coming down. I want out of here with a fiery passion. What seemed like a place of promise has only turned into a place where you will meet your demise. I don't want to be stuck in this state, I want to run. I don't want to stop.
I just need to go. Be free young man, be free-SS
I remember moving out to this hell hole of a state in 2000, there was promise, there was hope and it was a new beginning. Everything seemed like it was going to be better. No more crowding, more job openings, and a better chance at just about everything else. That was 10 years ago this past June. Then again, everything seemed a lot better in the summer of 2000. The economy was booming, spirits were actually high about everything. They wasn't a sense of fear with every step that we took. Things were okay.
Now come back to reality for a moment. That was 10 years ago. This part of the country, Phoenix, seemed like it was on the upside for everything. It seemed like a place where you could bring your family, and really settle down here. Kind of that old adage, head west young man. Now in the year 2010, I was blessed with going through some of the worst education in the country, brought up in a state where there is nothing to do (besides get into drugs to escape, which I will not go into), a state where health care if fledgling, and there are endless immigrant and job problems. So what looks better now?
I've been thinking the last few days about what it must be like to be back in New York, and be in the area where I grew up. What that must have been like. It's almost 3,000 miles away. From what I've seen things are a lot better back there, I don't care about snow, I don't care about rain. I just want out of this god damned state. The second I learn to fly I am never coming down. I want out of here with a fiery passion. What seemed like a place of promise has only turned into a place where you will meet your demise. I don't want to be stuck in this state, I want to run. I don't want to stop.
I just need to go. Be free young man, be free-SS
Monday, August 9, 2010
911 Is Busy Right Now Try Again Later
I've slacked off the last day or so. I think I posted on Saturday or something. Not much to catch up on.
I started reading 1984, so far I have really liked the book. There are a lot of parallels to today's world. The ones in power now wouldn't go that far, but in the prior eight years, it was very much going that way. Just imagine living in a world where your thoughts are monitored, and you can't as so much mention or think overthrowing the government. I've only just started getting into it, but so far so good. The next move would be to see the movie, I saw part of it a while back, and it confused the hell out of me, then again it had started an half hour earlier, so that is a big proponent to me not knowing what was going on.
The book is great fiction, but the human is too much of a free thinker to be restrained like that. To have such a large empire as they describe in the book and to be in an oppressive control like that, eventually the people will up-rise in such numbers that you would not be able to stop them. If it were to happen in a larger area like all of Europe and meanwhile the rest of the world as it, I think you might be able to maintain such oppressive order. That's why it is fiction, and I can see why so many bands I like are influenced by this book. I like fictional realism, it makes connection that much easier.
I had a lot more here, but this fucking website didn't save it, so I lost what I said. I don't feel like retyping it.
I started reading 1984, so far I have really liked the book. There are a lot of parallels to today's world. The ones in power now wouldn't go that far, but in the prior eight years, it was very much going that way. Just imagine living in a world where your thoughts are monitored, and you can't as so much mention or think overthrowing the government. I've only just started getting into it, but so far so good. The next move would be to see the movie, I saw part of it a while back, and it confused the hell out of me, then again it had started an half hour earlier, so that is a big proponent to me not knowing what was going on.
The book is great fiction, but the human is too much of a free thinker to be restrained like that. To have such a large empire as they describe in the book and to be in an oppressive control like that, eventually the people will up-rise in such numbers that you would not be able to stop them. If it were to happen in a larger area like all of Europe and meanwhile the rest of the world as it, I think you might be able to maintain such oppressive order. That's why it is fiction, and I can see why so many bands I like are influenced by this book. I like fictional realism, it makes connection that much easier.
I had a lot more here, but this fucking website didn't save it, so I lost what I said. I don't feel like retyping it.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Appeal To Reason
As promised, songs. I kind of have been under a rock for writing, but I finally heard a line in my head, and started scribbling. This is what I came up with.
“Appeal to Reason”
So ignorance is bliss
Or so many will say
It’s like a perfect kiss
A feeling that won’t stay
We won’t be ignored anymore
Take this all the way to the core
(Save us, save us)
From what we have become
(Break us, break us)
From this ritual that we love
This is a call to all the unanswered
An appeal to all your senses
This is where we take our final bow
And break through all fences
An appeal to all that you come to love
This is an appeal to your reason
Bring your huddled masses
And wipe away all of your tears
It’s slow as molasses
Can’t erase the past years
Together we will raise our voice
And say , “It is our fucking choice”
(Save us, save us)
From what we have become
(Break us, break us)
From this ritual that we love
This is a call to all the unanswered
An appeal to all your senses
This is where we take our final bow
And break through all fences
An appeal to all that you come to love
This is an appeal to your reason
We’ll watch it all slip away
As it goes with the fleeting day
We’ll turn the light back on
Our shadows are never far gone
{solo}
(Save us, save us)
From what we have become
(Break us, break us)
From this ritual that we love
This is a call to all the unanswered
An appeal to all your senses
This is where we take our final bow
And break through all fences (Hey x8)
An appeal to all that you come to love
This is an appeal,
An appeal to reason
“Appeal to Reason”
So ignorance is bliss
Or so many will say
It’s like a perfect kiss
A feeling that won’t stay
We won’t be ignored anymore
Take this all the way to the core
(Save us, save us)
From what we have become
(Break us, break us)
From this ritual that we love
This is a call to all the unanswered
An appeal to all your senses
This is where we take our final bow
And break through all fences
An appeal to all that you come to love
This is an appeal to your reason
Bring your huddled masses
And wipe away all of your tears
It’s slow as molasses
Can’t erase the past years
Together we will raise our voice
And say , “It is our fucking choice”
(Save us, save us)
From what we have become
(Break us, break us)
From this ritual that we love
This is a call to all the unanswered
An appeal to all your senses
This is where we take our final bow
And break through all fences
An appeal to all that you come to love
This is an appeal to your reason
We’ll watch it all slip away
As it goes with the fleeting day
We’ll turn the light back on
Our shadows are never far gone
{solo}
(Save us, save us)
From what we have become
(Break us, break us)
From this ritual that we love
This is a call to all the unanswered
An appeal to all your senses
This is where we take our final bow
And break through all fences (Hey x8)
An appeal to all that you come to love
This is an appeal,
An appeal to reason
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
In This Breathless Moment
Today, I'm trying to find a reson to keep my mind active. I am done with my summer class. Of which I got a 95 in, meaning my lecture course will not transfer over to NAU in the spring. This college thing is exciting. It does help that I will be moving out in a few months, but that time can't come soon enough. I'm fighting off that anxiety, and excitement of this encroaching event. I just want out of this damn town, I detest Phoenix, and I don't want to go to the hole that Tucson is, and it is best to stay in state for now, so it has come to that.
What am I going to do up there. I'm still not 100% sure. It is something is still totally up in the air, but I have narrowed down some of my choices. The two that are glaring back at me right now are a strange combination. The strange combination being, geology, and journalism. For journalism, I want to get into broadcast journalism and get into radio broadcasting. I want to be that voice on the radio that people connect with the team, like I connect Mets radio broadcast to Howie Rose. For geology, I want to get into historical geology. I want to study the past of the Earth, and where it is going. I have a million theories about where Earth has been, and where it is going. It is just crazy about what goes through my head on this stuff.
The trek to Flagstaff should be very interesting. Meeting a whole new lineup of people. I have been fed up with a lot, not all of, the people that I have been surrounded by in Phoenix. I've said this enough, change is always good. About 36,000 people go to NAU each semester, so there are so many opportunities to meet new people, it is a good change.
I'm not going to lie. I am afraid of crossing paths with someone again. I don't hate them, it just hurts me to see what they have become two years later. I don't think it will be that big of an issue, but it is something that is in the back of my mind. My mind is a kind of like that cliche' desert road in the middle, you know, with the tumbleweeds that blow across it, and the lone gas station, and eerie looking small living establishments. It take me to places I have been, and do not want to return, and vice-versa. At the same time, it takes me to new unknown places, those of which I can never really know what the true outcome may be. The unknown is interesting, but the same time, I really don't want to be lead back down a path I left so very long ago. Anyone that has truly been there will know the feeling.
I sit here in a shady room, just trying to keep going, for what right now, no reason. I don't have much of a cause to be writing now, but just out of true boredom. Trying to conquer that lonely feeling for today. I make it sound worse than it is, but it's not. There's just nothing to do, and no where to do. That's what makes it a lonely feeling. Will I have something to say later today/tonight, who knows. I just need to find something to do for now.
My hopes, my fears are all combining into one. Then again, who's aren't. We all have such a positive outlook on things most of the times, but there is always something in the back of our head that leaves us with the sense of fear, even though the concept you have presented yourself with is so simple, and nothing should go wrong. Murphy's Law sucks at times. That is just the nature of the human mind, do we really cause a good situation to implode on our own, or do we just set our fate that way, or even better yet, does out subconscious do it for us. Something I was talking about the other day.
I think this should be enough for now. Just trying to keep my mind going, and not let myself fall asleep at 3 PM.-SS
What am I going to do up there. I'm still not 100% sure. It is something is still totally up in the air, but I have narrowed down some of my choices. The two that are glaring back at me right now are a strange combination. The strange combination being, geology, and journalism. For journalism, I want to get into broadcast journalism and get into radio broadcasting. I want to be that voice on the radio that people connect with the team, like I connect Mets radio broadcast to Howie Rose. For geology, I want to get into historical geology. I want to study the past of the Earth, and where it is going. I have a million theories about where Earth has been, and where it is going. It is just crazy about what goes through my head on this stuff.
The trek to Flagstaff should be very interesting. Meeting a whole new lineup of people. I have been fed up with a lot, not all of, the people that I have been surrounded by in Phoenix. I've said this enough, change is always good. About 36,000 people go to NAU each semester, so there are so many opportunities to meet new people, it is a good change.
I'm not going to lie. I am afraid of crossing paths with someone again. I don't hate them, it just hurts me to see what they have become two years later. I don't think it will be that big of an issue, but it is something that is in the back of my mind. My mind is a kind of like that cliche' desert road in the middle, you know, with the tumbleweeds that blow across it, and the lone gas station, and eerie looking small living establishments. It take me to places I have been, and do not want to return, and vice-versa. At the same time, it takes me to new unknown places, those of which I can never really know what the true outcome may be. The unknown is interesting, but the same time, I really don't want to be lead back down a path I left so very long ago. Anyone that has truly been there will know the feeling.
I sit here in a shady room, just trying to keep going, for what right now, no reason. I don't have much of a cause to be writing now, but just out of true boredom. Trying to conquer that lonely feeling for today. I make it sound worse than it is, but it's not. There's just nothing to do, and no where to do. That's what makes it a lonely feeling. Will I have something to say later today/tonight, who knows. I just need to find something to do for now.
My hopes, my fears are all combining into one. Then again, who's aren't. We all have such a positive outlook on things most of the times, but there is always something in the back of our head that leaves us with the sense of fear, even though the concept you have presented yourself with is so simple, and nothing should go wrong. Murphy's Law sucks at times. That is just the nature of the human mind, do we really cause a good situation to implode on our own, or do we just set our fate that way, or even better yet, does out subconscious do it for us. Something I was talking about the other day.
I think this should be enough for now. Just trying to keep my mind going, and not let myself fall asleep at 3 PM.-SS
A Race Worth Running
Nothing really interesting to say tonight. I have a few quotes, and links for you.
"Lets forget the mistakes of yesterday and just live for today"-Anonymous
Budget deficit numbers:
http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash2/hs123.ash2/39506_139944639369341_104200886277050_238286_7463638_n.jpg
The Ed Shultz Show:
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21134540/vp/38529633#38529633
(What is said about about the Republicans having no power is what got me fired up!)
Rick Sanchez of CNN on Faux News
http://videocafe.crooksandliars.com/node/38768
Last but not least, I have insider information on what the Republican recovery jobs plan so we will all be able to make ends meet. "The Republicans solution to unemployment and people being able to make money again is this, everyone work 3 jobs making $5.00 and hour. It is a solid plan! And has no holes!" That thought made me think of a Rise Against song, "Re-Education (Through Labor)."
I'm done for now. It is just a slow night.-SS
"Lets forget the mistakes of yesterday and just live for today"-Anonymous
Budget deficit numbers:
http://sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash2/hs123.ash2/39506_139944639369341_104200886277050_238286_7463638_n.jpg
The Ed Shultz Show:
http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/21134540/vp/38529633#38529633
(What is said about about the Republicans having no power is what got me fired up!)
Rick Sanchez of CNN on Faux News
http://videocafe.crooksandliars.com/node/38768
Last but not least, I have insider information on what the Republican recovery jobs plan so we will all be able to make ends meet. "The Republicans solution to unemployment and people being able to make money again is this, everyone work 3 jobs making $5.00 and hour. It is a solid plan! And has no holes!" That thought made me think of a Rise Against song, "Re-Education (Through Labor)."
I'm done for now. It is just a slow night.-SS
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Inception Of A Thought
Saw Inception last night. It was a awesome movie. One of those movies that really toys with your mind way after you see it. The whole concept is very interesting, but the reality of being able to hack someones dreams is a total fiction. Good movie none the less. The whole theme of the movie, getting dreams confused with real life, is very plausible though. There is actually scientific fact to this. There are people out there that are actually convinced because of how vivid their dreams are that what they are living in, and their reality is their dream. It is a concept I have heard discussed before. Of course, last night I had a weird dream again.
It wasn't as strange as Sum 41's Deryck Wimble throwing giant bags of candy at me. That was weird. This dream not so much. There was something in the movie that happened in a dream I had last night. "In a dream, you can't remember how you got to your location the dream." In my dream I remember that for some reason I as in a parking lot with someone, who I don't know. I never really see faces in my dreams. None-the-less. We walked through a parking lot, and I remember realizing that I'm in a dream because I didn't remember how I got there, thought about it for a second then realized I knew how I got there. The rest I don't remember. It was just weird. Very weird, and I've had some vivid dreams before, should I be concerned?
The whole movie was fascinating. The whole idea that our dreams influence what we do in life more than what we actually do. Our subconscious will actually make the decisions for us, even though we think we are in command of what we are thinking, and going to do. I will attest to this, why. I had a dream about a week and a half before I left my band. So did I really make that decision, or did my subconcious tell me that it was time to go. I will never really know, but I am very content with that decision. That could explain other events in my life that changed suddenly.
It is really weird how sometimes a movie can tap into something inside of you were not that attentive to before, but now you are on the look out for. It is called the subconscious, so no matter even if we do pay attention to it, we don't have control over it. That is what makes it best. We have two opnions in our life, we have one we can be verbal and physical in our choices, but think of this. Have all of our decisions been made already by ourselves, even if we don't know it?
If you have been seeing someone for say two weeks, you have a dream say at about day 20 of that relationship where it is a year and a half down the road, and your dream depicts you leaving that person. Wake up, and don't remember it, but there are some vague things you do. Sure enough a year and a half later you have a strong urge to leave that person. It could also be the other way around.
The human mind is a perplexing place.-SS
It wasn't as strange as Sum 41's Deryck Wimble throwing giant bags of candy at me. That was weird. This dream not so much. There was something in the movie that happened in a dream I had last night. "In a dream, you can't remember how you got to your location the dream." In my dream I remember that for some reason I as in a parking lot with someone, who I don't know. I never really see faces in my dreams. None-the-less. We walked through a parking lot, and I remember realizing that I'm in a dream because I didn't remember how I got there, thought about it for a second then realized I knew how I got there. The rest I don't remember. It was just weird. Very weird, and I've had some vivid dreams before, should I be concerned?
The whole movie was fascinating. The whole idea that our dreams influence what we do in life more than what we actually do. Our subconscious will actually make the decisions for us, even though we think we are in command of what we are thinking, and going to do. I will attest to this, why. I had a dream about a week and a half before I left my band. So did I really make that decision, or did my subconcious tell me that it was time to go. I will never really know, but I am very content with that decision. That could explain other events in my life that changed suddenly.
It is really weird how sometimes a movie can tap into something inside of you were not that attentive to before, but now you are on the look out for. It is called the subconscious, so no matter even if we do pay attention to it, we don't have control over it. That is what makes it best. We have two opnions in our life, we have one we can be verbal and physical in our choices, but think of this. Have all of our decisions been made already by ourselves, even if we don't know it?
If you have been seeing someone for say two weeks, you have a dream say at about day 20 of that relationship where it is a year and a half down the road, and your dream depicts you leaving that person. Wake up, and don't remember it, but there are some vague things you do. Sure enough a year and a half later you have a strong urge to leave that person. It could also be the other way around.
The human mind is a perplexing place.-SS
Monday, August 2, 2010
It's Just What We Are
I don't have much to say tonight. I have three more days of summer class starting tomorrow. I procrastinated too much. So I'm going to go to sleep now. With the end of this class I am inching closer to the goal I have of getting to NAU. It is exciting, but the wait is killing me. I just wish it was January already so I know what is going on. I have 5 and half months until I will know what is going to happen.
One last breath. Then we jump into the deep end...-SS
One last breath. Then we jump into the deep end...-SS
Sunday, August 1, 2010
We Have Nothing To Hide
I'm very open about my private life at times. Why? I have nothing to hide, I don't have any skeletons hiding in my closet. I rather be open and forthcoming about things so people have nothing to use against you. I'm not afraid to say what is going on in my life, if you have the gusto to read, and feel the urge to butt into my life go for it. I know you are looking at mistake I may make just to make you feel better. We all make mistakes, I don't think I'm perfect, but obviously if you are reading this to wait for me to break, you have flaws in your own life that you are ignoring. I refuse to be hiding in corners and be afraid of saying something, or my own actions.
I make a reference to something happened two years ago now yesterday, and someone assumes that I am not over said person. I'm the kind of person that is going to remember the good, and block out the bad. Especially on the anniversary of something that was an euphoric experience, why not think about it, and let your friend know that is something that is on your mind. If you want to say I'm not over that person two years later, you are out of line, and being ignorant. I have been out and about, I have been over for a very long time. Just because I like to bring up the past, in a way I use it as a warning to my self so I never forget. More so like a mental tattoo so I won't take a step back and wind up in a similar situation. I won't make personal attacks at you like that, so why do you think you have the bloody right to.
Now I feel like answering back to somethings that the band had shot at my brother after he said something on their facebook page.
There was a night way back in Junary I had too much to drink, we all do that. If there is one moment in my life that I regret it has to be that moment. I really should have learned after that, well, just don't do it. I still continued like an idiot. I missed practice the next day because I was way too hung over to move. I just not recently learned how close to death I really was. I had alcohol poisoning. If there is a good reason not to go to practice, let me know. That put me about 10 feet away from death. This is a good one. The singing in key thing. I know what singing flat sounds like. This is just them (two members), trying to make any excuse that it is a good thing that I left. I was the only one in that band that could sing. Then they seem to believe I also posted an ad saying it was a good thing that they were done. Please remember that as a band we pissed off a lot of people out there, and most of the people that knew us knew me personally, and didn't particularly like the other members.
It's really good not to be in a band where everyone talked shit about each other. One member was on the chopping block, and should have been in all reality axed then, another just really couldn't stand the other member, and seemed like it would get physical many a time. I know bands are supposed to have these trials and tribulations, but when there is this much drama going on behind the scenes, it's not the kind of stuff that is interesting to read in the biography.
My blog last night I stated how I would more than comfortable joining a band that doesn't do drugs or drink. Plays their music and goes out and socializes and doesn't need alcohol or another form of intoxication to make friends. I want friends that are true, and can be trusted. After leaving this band, I have lost a little sense of trust for people. It was tried before, but once again, it has been pulled taught and I am on edge about people. We live we learn, and we walk away. That's where I sit now.
It's whatever man. I feel like I'm on the defense on this, but I really don't mind it. I have stuff to say. I'm like the whistle blower after they leave a messed up business and want to speak about it. I wanna tell what happened, and what is happening with it. I just goes this way. With a band, you can expect some stuff like this, but this wasn't a normal band and normal band bumps, and groans.
I'm done for now. I'm sick peoples ignorance, and their lack of thought.-SS
I make a reference to something happened two years ago now yesterday, and someone assumes that I am not over said person. I'm the kind of person that is going to remember the good, and block out the bad. Especially on the anniversary of something that was an euphoric experience, why not think about it, and let your friend know that is something that is on your mind. If you want to say I'm not over that person two years later, you are out of line, and being ignorant. I have been out and about, I have been over for a very long time. Just because I like to bring up the past, in a way I use it as a warning to my self so I never forget. More so like a mental tattoo so I won't take a step back and wind up in a similar situation. I won't make personal attacks at you like that, so why do you think you have the bloody right to.
Now I feel like answering back to somethings that the band had shot at my brother after he said something on their facebook page.
There was a night way back in Junary I had too much to drink, we all do that. If there is one moment in my life that I regret it has to be that moment. I really should have learned after that, well, just don't do it. I still continued like an idiot. I missed practice the next day because I was way too hung over to move. I just not recently learned how close to death I really was. I had alcohol poisoning. If there is a good reason not to go to practice, let me know. That put me about 10 feet away from death. This is a good one. The singing in key thing. I know what singing flat sounds like. This is just them (two members), trying to make any excuse that it is a good thing that I left. I was the only one in that band that could sing. Then they seem to believe I also posted an ad saying it was a good thing that they were done. Please remember that as a band we pissed off a lot of people out there, and most of the people that knew us knew me personally, and didn't particularly like the other members.
It's really good not to be in a band where everyone talked shit about each other. One member was on the chopping block, and should have been in all reality axed then, another just really couldn't stand the other member, and seemed like it would get physical many a time. I know bands are supposed to have these trials and tribulations, but when there is this much drama going on behind the scenes, it's not the kind of stuff that is interesting to read in the biography.
My blog last night I stated how I would more than comfortable joining a band that doesn't do drugs or drink. Plays their music and goes out and socializes and doesn't need alcohol or another form of intoxication to make friends. I want friends that are true, and can be trusted. After leaving this band, I have lost a little sense of trust for people. It was tried before, but once again, it has been pulled taught and I am on edge about people. We live we learn, and we walk away. That's where I sit now.
It's whatever man. I feel like I'm on the defense on this, but I really don't mind it. I have stuff to say. I'm like the whistle blower after they leave a messed up business and want to speak about it. I wanna tell what happened, and what is happening with it. I just goes this way. With a band, you can expect some stuff like this, but this wasn't a normal band and normal band bumps, and groans.
I'm done for now. I'm sick peoples ignorance, and their lack of thought.-SS
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