I had the strangest dream last night, and it has kind of left me a little shaken, and curious about it. If there is something I wish I could decipher, I wish I could figure out dreams, because this one was weird. My dreams aren't like a fantasy dream, most of my dreams take place within reality, which for the most part they confuse me. Anyway, enough of the introductory jabber, I'll move onto the main point.
The dream starts as most do, you are in a place you can't describe, and you don't quite understand how you got there in the first place. This one was particular because there were parts the reminded me of my home town in New York, although I know it wasn't. Same sort of atmosphere that my old home town had though. Now one of the first things I remember in this dream is coming across this girl, I say she was about 5'6 to 5'8, and she was trying to kill her self. I stopped her from doing such a final deed, not by talking her out of it, but stopped her physically, and basically pulled her out of a pool she was trying to drown herself in. Shortly after that my mind jumps to i want to say maybe six months into the future. This girl and I have formed a relationship, and we are very, very close. To the point I am holding her in my arms, and she gives me a kiss. Then this is where teh dream starts getting dark.
This scene that I am describing is like a scene in a movie where everything is happy just before the horrible event happens, and the story has it's problem. The dream cuts to a part, where I am not to the girl back at the pool that I rescued her from, but something is wrong, something has happened to her, she is really depressed and crying. Why is she this way, I do not know. Dreams do that to you, no back story to explain it. She ties a cable around her neck that is tied to the fence aroud the pool, she jumps in and drowns her self. Now this is the part that has me shaken, and confused.
I see her take the plunge into the pool, and quickly I jump in, while trying to swim over and save her, something literally stops me and blocks me, and said "try it again, and we will send you... and the location is blurred so I have no clue where. It is an invisible force that I couldn't explain, but this was a note card at the bottom of the pool that I saw. The pool was murkey, but a light from the other side of the pool illuminated, but the girl I could not see. I couldn't stop her this time, and something wanted her dead. I could have stopped her, but I was helpless, and felt listless.
The dream cuts again. I'm on a bus, and I don't know why I ask someone, who in the dream appears to be a friend. Is there any way we can save her or bring her back, and the person looks at me with confusion and tells me that she is gone, and there is no getting her back. There is no helping her now, she has passed. Again, that emotion of confusion and sorrow arrived in my body, and I felt lost knowing that this girl was gone.
I cannot explain this dream. There is no resemblance to it. I'm not grieving over a lost girl, wanting someone back. It is confusing. I hate when your mind plays tricks on you like this. Some people have fearful nightmares, I just get these realistic dreams that have really depressing outcomes. No horror,no blood, no guts, or whatever, just a miserable ending that I can never explain.
Sometimes I wish that the whole Inception thing was real, so you can construct dreams and such, and piece together meanings. Nope, not the case. I'll just continue wondering....-SS
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