The things I do sometimes just don't make any sense. I went out to Tempe to try out for a band/meet guys from a band. To sum it up in one swing, they were doing something very similar I was doing in Ripp Tyde. I don't want to stay on that path, I don't want to do a raunchy hard rock band. They style that was popular in the 80's died in say 1992. It had a small revival in 2008, hence all the 80's bands with very good record, Def Leppard, Motley Crue, Metallica, Guns N' Roses. Well, you can kind of count Guns on the other side of that. It died as quick as it had re-birth. That is another reason why I left. The style is dead, and I didn't want to continue in a band where I was going to be mocked for trying to be something that is I guess retro. It wasn't anything new and that is what record label look for.
What I am exactly looking for is a band that is similar to Rise Against. Build upon their sound that they have created. I just want songs, and a band with meaning. I don't want to sing lyrics that were just written on the spot just because, and they then sound nonsensical. I don't want to put up a front like I was in Ripp Tyde, it just wasn't me. I'm not a party animal, I'm not a heavy drinker, and I'm not really looking to hook up with every groupie out there. I would be very content playing in a straight edge punk band. I don't care if I am contradicting myself from words that I had said earlier. I have enough problems with my body, why keep putting more poisons in. I don't want to be like that.
Recently I was talking to someone I know who met Rise Against after the July 14, 2009 show. He first off said they were really classy guys, and I can really buy into that after meeting Chris Chasse in Los Angeles. What he said Tim did I like a lot, and that would be me. On stage put on a great show, lead the crowd and be that guy. After the show, he said after they talked he swung on his backpack, and walked alone to the hotel, which was right behind the venue. I would be very content being like that. Dying young is way too boring these days, and it is way too cliche'. Do I really want to be like, John Bonham, Kurt Cobain, Steve Clark, or Bon Scott? No. Simple as that. I want to live a full life and see things, and remember them.
We all grow up, and we all change. I think I have really hit that point this last month. The best part about the human conscious is our willing to grow and change to our surroundings. I more than likely have said this before, those who are afraid of change, will not grow and mature and will remain stuck in that same room for the rest of their lives. It's about getting up and taking a stand and saying, "no more." That has been the point I have reached. Is it depressing that being in a band for the most part was my social life? My my mind, very yes. Especially the band I just left.
I'm moving out come January and moving to Flagstaff, for school, health, and personal reasons. What I have been doing the past six months was living in repetition. It was one of the most redundant cycles of my life thus far. That is all about to change. I'm not going to the same place every Friday or Saturday night, and surrounded by the same people. Meeting new people tends to be a good experience. I mean you can meet anyone, new band mates, a girlfriend, a celebrity. It goes on and on. We all need to break chains, and I have broken mine. I hope when I get back into a band it doesn't wind up being the same thing. I wrote a song that wasn't supposed to be a song about reality, but a bad dream. That bad dream of repetition and the song came true. Funny, I think not.
It comes down to this, I'm not looking for a band that could evolve into what I just left. I'm done with the genre of music, I love listening to those bands, but I'm not influenced to be like them anymore. I was for about 5 years, it is now time to move on. I just really wonder at times, have all musicians lost touch with reality. Life isn't all about writing songs to be sleezy, to be vulgar. Music is an expression, and if everyone is saying the same thing, have us as musicians, lyricists, instrumentalists, and vocalists lost our individualism? It is a question I have been asking to my self when I have been writing lyricvs the past 6 months. Sometimes what I wrote lyrically, the meaning was written by say Motley Crue, or Def Leppard. To me it is bland to do that. Same goes when writing riffs for that music. Stealing something from the past is the same thing. You are taking someone else's thoughts musically, and put up a facade and say it's yours. That's no way to live mate.
One last thing about being in a band. I titled a blog a few weeks ago in reference to this. When you are in a band, your band-mates shake your hand, and praise you really no matter what. Not only that, they are sincere about it too. Then the second you walk away from it all, they start saying how you were crap, or they can do better. The greatest one I got was that I was getting the band no where. Here is my piece about it. If I wasn't in the band, we wouldn't have gotten shows, there would have been no t-shirts, no idea where to go fro recording, no new members when people decided to walk. When it came to shows, who was the one got the crowd going, who engaged them in a proper way? Who was the only one moving around on stage at times? Also, who is responsible for you even being in a band? I was that band in so many ways, no one stopped to realize it. That's exactly how I will be when I join another band. I will help get shows, and all the little perks, and I will front and represent the band. I have learned a lot over the past few years about how things work. It takes time and especially effort. If you want to do anything with a band, you have to commit as much as possible. Give up petty habits, and put your band first.
That is all for tonight. But first a quote to finish off this blog...
"Things do not change; WE change!"-SS
Friday, July 30, 2010
They're Killing The Middle Class!!!
"(We) are the people you depend on- We cook your meals, we haul your trash, we connect your calls, we drive your ambulances, we guard you while you sleep - do not fuck with us."-Tyler Durden, Fight Club
I tweaked that quote a little, but it still gets the point across. I was reading a news article last night bout more stuff that is going on in congress. To me this is a pure shock, it is just mind boggling. The Republicans once again are stopping a bill that will help small businesses. For the average person who shops at say their local Wal-Mart, or grocery store, those are not small business. Small business makes up about 99% of the US economy, and that is no exaggeration. The conservatives rather re-up the Bush ear tax cuts. Who are those tax cuts for? The rich, and the affluent, not, you me or your best friend (unless you liver in Beverly Hills.) Then they also want to pump billions into securing the border. They want to put focus on places that will not help the economy, and the American people. I say, lets fix our economy, get small business hiring again, then get to border control.
What the Republicans have done is quite remarkable. They have used religion to brainwash the simple minded American white folk to believe that everyone that isn't from America is a problem and they need to be taken care of. It's not only that, we have all heard what sister Sarah has said about getting God more into our government. I think Homer Simpson said it best about that, "God, if you listehing, stay out of our way." This country was founded on the premise that religion would be separate from government, after all, that is why we left England in the first place. So are these knuckle head Republicans trying to bring us back to ye olde English ways, king and all?
I love how they say Obama is trying to do things to become a dictator, or take over the country. He has done more than most presidents have done in two terms in just a more than a year and a half in office. The best part about it all, he has done a lot of things thus far that Ronald Regan did back in the 80's. Wait a second... Ronald Regan, he is the Republicans god? Do I smell something wrong here. The list is long, Rachael Maddow documented it best:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EXu-CB1XbO4
Keep that in mind next time you go to vote Republican at the polls just in spite of Obama and the Democrats. When you think about it, Regan was the person many believe to be the one thet basically laid the foundation for what the GOP is today. Some will say it goes back even further to Richard Nixon.
My belief is that these Republicans want to take over again, and induce a state of totalitarianism all based around Christianity, and conservative religions. Someone made a chart as an example, serious or not, but showed what happened when religion was more so in power, and not the free mind. Simply stated, the Dark Ages. Everything was a mess then, ruled by a higher power we aren't even sure exists. It set us back technologically years, who knows we could have had flying cars by now, or holograms. They called the Renaissance that for a reason, it was a revitalization of human thought, and ingenuity. I really think, overwhelmingly, that this November if they gain any sort of power back, we are doomed.
I hope my hopes and fears meet at the middle somewhere. I don't want the Dems to really lose anymore seats, but rather gain maybe 5-6 (hope), and I don';t the republicans to somehow gain a majority (fear). If they get power, nothing will get done. This world is coming to an intersting apex, where it will take us after, I just have no clue.
I tweaked that quote a little, but it still gets the point across. I was reading a news article last night bout more stuff that is going on in congress. To me this is a pure shock, it is just mind boggling. The Republicans once again are stopping a bill that will help small businesses. For the average person who shops at say their local Wal-Mart, or grocery store, those are not small business. Small business makes up about 99% of the US economy, and that is no exaggeration. The conservatives rather re-up the Bush ear tax cuts. Who are those tax cuts for? The rich, and the affluent, not, you me or your best friend (unless you liver in Beverly Hills.) Then they also want to pump billions into securing the border. They want to put focus on places that will not help the economy, and the American people. I say, lets fix our economy, get small business hiring again, then get to border control.
What the Republicans have done is quite remarkable. They have used religion to brainwash the simple minded American white folk to believe that everyone that isn't from America is a problem and they need to be taken care of. It's not only that, we have all heard what sister Sarah has said about getting God more into our government. I think Homer Simpson said it best about that, "God, if you listehing, stay out of our way." This country was founded on the premise that religion would be separate from government, after all, that is why we left England in the first place. So are these knuckle head Republicans trying to bring us back to ye olde English ways, king and all?
I love how they say Obama is trying to do things to become a dictator, or take over the country. He has done more than most presidents have done in two terms in just a more than a year and a half in office. The best part about it all, he has done a lot of things thus far that Ronald Regan did back in the 80's. Wait a second... Ronald Regan, he is the Republicans god? Do I smell something wrong here. The list is long, Rachael Maddow documented it best:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EXu-CB1XbO4
Keep that in mind next time you go to vote Republican at the polls just in spite of Obama and the Democrats. When you think about it, Regan was the person many believe to be the one thet basically laid the foundation for what the GOP is today. Some will say it goes back even further to Richard Nixon.
My belief is that these Republicans want to take over again, and induce a state of totalitarianism all based around Christianity, and conservative religions. Someone made a chart as an example, serious or not, but showed what happened when religion was more so in power, and not the free mind. Simply stated, the Dark Ages. Everything was a mess then, ruled by a higher power we aren't even sure exists. It set us back technologically years, who knows we could have had flying cars by now, or holograms. They called the Renaissance that for a reason, it was a revitalization of human thought, and ingenuity. I really think, overwhelmingly, that this November if they gain any sort of power back, we are doomed.
I hope my hopes and fears meet at the middle somewhere. I don't want the Dems to really lose anymore seats, but rather gain maybe 5-6 (hope), and I don';t the republicans to somehow gain a majority (fear). If they get power, nothing will get done. This world is coming to an intersting apex, where it will take us after, I just have no clue.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
I've Been Gone For What Seems Like Forever
Just got back from Los Angeles this evening. Interesting trip to say the least. Wasn't a big agenda planned, most of the trip was spent at the Hermosa Beach, like we figured. I have to say the highlight of the trip was meeting Chris Chasse. For those of you who don't know, he is the former guitarist of Rise Against, and probably my favorite guitar player currently. He was a really cool guy, my perception of him was very wrong. Then again I was listening to a girl who kind of knew stuff about him. He said something awesome when I told him Nations Afire shouldn't boycott Arizona, he said he wouldn't. Very cool guy.
The temperatures were great, not a day over 75. It wasn't something really to brag about. I will talk more about as the week progresses. I just don't really feel like talking that much about it. It was more of a relaxing vacation.-SS
The temperatures were great, not a day over 75. It wasn't something really to brag about. I will talk more about as the week progresses. I just don't really feel like talking that much about it. It was more of a relaxing vacation.-SS
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Are You Restless Like Me?
We have entered a hostile environment. All troops to battle stations. We just might not make it out of here alive. I think that is alright though. What else do we really want to see anyways?
I have come to notice somethings about what I do. I am a very influential individual. Some of teh things I have done have made me well noticed. Whether it has been with a band, or just being out and about. I have had some influence around this local scene whether people realize it or not. Most people know me from my Ripp Tyde experiment, but at the same time they really saw what I really was. An anxiety guy with a lot on his mind, but could not really divulge his full view on what he wanted to say, because of teh band he was in.
As most people know, I have a lot to say. I have a though or opinion on just about everything. I think you suck, that sucks, I'm an idiot, I'm stupid, that rocks, and so on. The world around influences me more than anything. I'm saying what some people are really afraid to say. That is what I want to do musically with my next project. I always say I wanna start the next huge punk band. Why you may ask. I want to get a message out there, and write songs we can all rally around. Look at what Rise Against has done. They have evolved their sound, meanwhile they haven't lost what they stood for. That is exactly what I want to do. People will say that you are a poser for having views. I don;t see my self as that. I just see my self as the leader for what people want to say. If that makes me what youw ill call a poser. Then so be it. All these punks that dream of forming a band and staying underground tend to sing the same song. If you get out there, you will evolve what you want to say.
It's about being someone. It is about having your damn voice heard over the millions of screaming hearts that will never get heard. Coming out on top and then help amplify those screaming hearts. There is so much one could do like that. No one wants to be that guy. I applauder what Rose Against has done so far. I would suggest that anyone wishing to form a punk band use them as a model. There is a reason why I look up so much to Tim McIlrath. According to everyone who has met him, he and the band are very classy guys. That is exactly what I want to be known as when I am in a band. Not a loud brute that doesn't really think. I really believe if I kept in Ripp that is what I would have become. I am more than that.
That is my goal that I want to bring with any music that I will write, or take part of in the near future. If that means a band in Flagstaff or in Phoenix, cause I will be in Flag in 6 months. Speaking of that.
With me going to Flagstaff in 6 months. I more than likely would have walked away from Ripp Tyde then anyways. It just would have made sense. I know I said I would have traveled, but I think with the new surroundings. I am going to find something better.
I really think I have found a new me. It's weird when you can feel your self changing. It is for the best. To change, and evolve is what makes us so human, if we don't, are we better than any of the other creatures in the world. No. If you think change is a bad thing, and you are refusing to adapt to what is going on around, are you really living life to its fullest? Just ask yourself that next time you are faced with an interesting situation where you need to change so you can improve yourself, and increase the quality of your life.
I am going to see one of the local bands I am friends with and a group that has teh same influences as me, and I think looks a little to me. If not, then whatever. I'm going out to do something. T.S.R-SS
I have come to notice somethings about what I do. I am a very influential individual. Some of teh things I have done have made me well noticed. Whether it has been with a band, or just being out and about. I have had some influence around this local scene whether people realize it or not. Most people know me from my Ripp Tyde experiment, but at the same time they really saw what I really was. An anxiety guy with a lot on his mind, but could not really divulge his full view on what he wanted to say, because of teh band he was in.
As most people know, I have a lot to say. I have a though or opinion on just about everything. I think you suck, that sucks, I'm an idiot, I'm stupid, that rocks, and so on. The world around influences me more than anything. I'm saying what some people are really afraid to say. That is what I want to do musically with my next project. I always say I wanna start the next huge punk band. Why you may ask. I want to get a message out there, and write songs we can all rally around. Look at what Rise Against has done. They have evolved their sound, meanwhile they haven't lost what they stood for. That is exactly what I want to do. People will say that you are a poser for having views. I don;t see my self as that. I just see my self as the leader for what people want to say. If that makes me what youw ill call a poser. Then so be it. All these punks that dream of forming a band and staying underground tend to sing the same song. If you get out there, you will evolve what you want to say.
It's about being someone. It is about having your damn voice heard over the millions of screaming hearts that will never get heard. Coming out on top and then help amplify those screaming hearts. There is so much one could do like that. No one wants to be that guy. I applauder what Rose Against has done so far. I would suggest that anyone wishing to form a punk band use them as a model. There is a reason why I look up so much to Tim McIlrath. According to everyone who has met him, he and the band are very classy guys. That is exactly what I want to be known as when I am in a band. Not a loud brute that doesn't really think. I really believe if I kept in Ripp that is what I would have become. I am more than that.
That is my goal that I want to bring with any music that I will write, or take part of in the near future. If that means a band in Flagstaff or in Phoenix, cause I will be in Flag in 6 months. Speaking of that.
With me going to Flagstaff in 6 months. I more than likely would have walked away from Ripp Tyde then anyways. It just would have made sense. I know I said I would have traveled, but I think with the new surroundings. I am going to find something better.
I really think I have found a new me. It's weird when you can feel your self changing. It is for the best. To change, and evolve is what makes us so human, if we don't, are we better than any of the other creatures in the world. No. If you think change is a bad thing, and you are refusing to adapt to what is going on around, are you really living life to its fullest? Just ask yourself that next time you are faced with an interesting situation where you need to change so you can improve yourself, and increase the quality of your life.
I am going to see one of the local bands I am friends with and a group that has teh same influences as me, and I think looks a little to me. If not, then whatever. I'm going out to do something. T.S.R-SS
Now The Music Is Playing On Our Time
Saw Against Me! tonight. That is a main reason why I am on this blog site. Tom Gabel also has a blog on this site, "I Feel Sick To My Stomach." It made sense, and he is a cool guy. Saw him getting his clothes that were drying on the bus mirrors of the bus. I guess that's how you do laundry when you are on the road. Their set was awesome. They sounded spot on. For some reason, Andrew their bass player was not there so they had a rodie stand in. They played all the songs I wanted to hear except for "Those Anarcho-Punks Are Mysterious." That and "From Her Lips To Gods Ears." I'll take what I got. It was 16 songs of awesome. There is a reason why I have been so influenced by these bands the last two years, and they are really ther first band I remember finding about in this genre in 2007.
Also today. Finally got my hair cut. No more long hair for me. It feels better. I have turned a page in my life and I am very content with it. I was willing to face change, and I did it for my own appearance. It looks good. There are many that will now criticize my move to get my hair cut short, but I will ignore them. It's how I feel right now, and it works. I want to join a punk band, so short hair makes sense. Also, long hair has really cone out of style lately from what I have seen. So that is why I did it.
That's really all I got. I was going to say something about the oil spill, because I thought their cap was illogical and geologically it is a very bad idea. I saw other wise with a drawing of their diagram. They have stopped it. It's about time. Don't lose touch-SS
Also today. Finally got my hair cut. No more long hair for me. It feels better. I have turned a page in my life and I am very content with it. I was willing to face change, and I did it for my own appearance. It looks good. There are many that will now criticize my move to get my hair cut short, but I will ignore them. It's how I feel right now, and it works. I want to join a punk band, so short hair makes sense. Also, long hair has really cone out of style lately from what I have seen. So that is why I did it.
That's really all I got. I was going to say something about the oil spill, because I thought their cap was illogical and geologically it is a very bad idea. I saw other wise with a drawing of their diagram. They have stopped it. It's about time. Don't lose touch-SS
Saturday, July 17, 2010
All Is Silent
I have really nothing tonight. I am too tired to think about writing, or really much else. The water park killed me, and getting up for finishing paper work for the new job. Hair cut tomorrow morning. I am saying good bye to a part of my life that I have been so dedicated to to the betetr bpart of 3 years. It was a good ride old friend, but you will be back someday. I know it.
Against Me! tomorrow night. Should be fun.-SS
Against Me! tomorrow night. Should be fun.-SS
Thursday, July 15, 2010
On Again, Off Again
Bits, and bits of things are so far getting better, and better. Today I learned I got the job at the Frys I put the application in to. I know have a source of income and money again. It's not going to be much, but it will be something, or at least some free spending cash, of which I do not have to waste on a band right now. With this I can save up to buy a guitar and amp. I already have my eye on 2 guitars, and an amplifier. It's gonna run me around I think about $1,300 for it all. I'm hoping for a big sale so it will come down. Not only that I still need to save up so I will have money in Flagstaff if they don't have a Frys in Flagstaff or can't transfer me. I will have some money as a foundation to start the year.
Tonight I am a little flustered with the fact I had to miss Against Me! in Flagstaff. I will be seeing them on Saturday as a compensation. It's not much. The difference is about seven songs. I would like them to play "Those Anarcho Punk Are Mysterious," but I suspect they will not. I also checked out the setlists from their headlining shows, compared to the shows where they were an opener. I'm still holding out that they will be added on to Epicenter Festival in September. Rise Against said they were playing on their website, but I haven't seen an official announcement from them, or the festival. Crossing my fingers.
My trip to California is a few days away. Going to see Keane at Greek Theater on the 21st, then see Chris Chasse band (former Rise Against lead guitarist) the following day at the Roxxy on teh Strip. Talk about feeling at home. LA and two concerts, a beach, Mets game. Did I die or something. If I did, please let me stay here. The only thing that would make it better would be seeing Rise Against. Oh wait, that's about 8 weeks later. I think I should just say, "fuck it," and move out there. I heard they have internet. Phoenix just sucks and is probably a big reason I really can't move forward in things, band, school, career. I wanted to be a firefighter and they have a volunteer department in NY. Los Angeles, as big and as crowded as it may be. It is the place I would like to be.
Now this is what has me burning, or confused. One or the other. Haven't really made up my mind which one it is. What I am stuck on is what to do with my hair right now. I just got a job and I figured I would need to do this anyways. I just don't know what to do with it. I have ideas in mind. They range from short to lengthy, but not long like it is now. I have really had long hair for the better part of 3 years now. I don't want it anymore. I did long hair a lot in baseball offseason's when I was in high school. So you could say I have been doing it since about the end of 2005. I feel as if it is time for change. Change which I am willing to face on one side mentally, but the other I can't bring my self up to do. It is really weird. Once again, I don't have a band that will criticize whatever move I make ascetically. One other reason I am looking for a punk band is because I wanna go short. It will be weird. I think it will be fine though.
I just now decided after reading some ads to just see if I can form my own band from scratch. That might be the best way to do it right now. In a way I will get some control of the band, but I really don't like being that controlling with things. It seemed like I was with the other band I was in because, well, no one stepped up to the podium to help take charge. I have a dozen or so possible band names. There are two of those that have really got my attention. Of course they would go well with a po-nk band.
Now this was something I found funny tonight that my brother did. He took it upon himself to comment on both Ripp Tyde's myspace page, and facebook page. He doesn't like how the guys in the band have handled it thus far. I personally don't thin it's everyone in the band. I have my stiff beliefs who is really doing all the tampering, and speaking. Then you got this from one of the people I am friend with, and saw me play with them. He said this, "it's pretty sad if 4 other guys 18 and over cannot raise $200." Mind you this, he is in high school. I think he's gonna be a junior. I found that funny.
I may or may not have some new lyrics tomorrow. I wrote a chorus the other day, but haven't done anything else with it yet. It's going to be interesting. I have a title for it already "Public Reception." I still have to actually write it, the title might change. We'll see what happens. I'm out for the night-SS
Tonight I am a little flustered with the fact I had to miss Against Me! in Flagstaff. I will be seeing them on Saturday as a compensation. It's not much. The difference is about seven songs. I would like them to play "Those Anarcho Punk Are Mysterious," but I suspect they will not. I also checked out the setlists from their headlining shows, compared to the shows where they were an opener. I'm still holding out that they will be added on to Epicenter Festival in September. Rise Against said they were playing on their website, but I haven't seen an official announcement from them, or the festival. Crossing my fingers.
My trip to California is a few days away. Going to see Keane at Greek Theater on the 21st, then see Chris Chasse band (former Rise Against lead guitarist) the following day at the Roxxy on teh Strip. Talk about feeling at home. LA and two concerts, a beach, Mets game. Did I die or something. If I did, please let me stay here. The only thing that would make it better would be seeing Rise Against. Oh wait, that's about 8 weeks later. I think I should just say, "fuck it," and move out there. I heard they have internet. Phoenix just sucks and is probably a big reason I really can't move forward in things, band, school, career. I wanted to be a firefighter and they have a volunteer department in NY. Los Angeles, as big and as crowded as it may be. It is the place I would like to be.
Now this is what has me burning, or confused. One or the other. Haven't really made up my mind which one it is. What I am stuck on is what to do with my hair right now. I just got a job and I figured I would need to do this anyways. I just don't know what to do with it. I have ideas in mind. They range from short to lengthy, but not long like it is now. I have really had long hair for the better part of 3 years now. I don't want it anymore. I did long hair a lot in baseball offseason's when I was in high school. So you could say I have been doing it since about the end of 2005. I feel as if it is time for change. Change which I am willing to face on one side mentally, but the other I can't bring my self up to do. It is really weird. Once again, I don't have a band that will criticize whatever move I make ascetically. One other reason I am looking for a punk band is because I wanna go short. It will be weird. I think it will be fine though.
I just now decided after reading some ads to just see if I can form my own band from scratch. That might be the best way to do it right now. In a way I will get some control of the band, but I really don't like being that controlling with things. It seemed like I was with the other band I was in because, well, no one stepped up to the podium to help take charge. I have a dozen or so possible band names. There are two of those that have really got my attention. Of course they would go well with a po-nk band.
Now this was something I found funny tonight that my brother did. He took it upon himself to comment on both Ripp Tyde's myspace page, and facebook page. He doesn't like how the guys in the band have handled it thus far. I personally don't thin it's everyone in the band. I have my stiff beliefs who is really doing all the tampering, and speaking. Then you got this from one of the people I am friend with, and saw me play with them. He said this, "it's pretty sad if 4 other guys 18 and over cannot raise $200." Mind you this, he is in high school. I think he's gonna be a junior. I found that funny.
I may or may not have some new lyrics tomorrow. I wrote a chorus the other day, but haven't done anything else with it yet. It's going to be interesting. I have a title for it already "Public Reception." I still have to actually write it, the title might change. We'll see what happens. I'm out for the night-SS
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Let Us Explode!
As the day grinds to a halt as it does every night I have some more grumblings or whatever you may call them. Getting the tide to make a turn, which is pretty sweet. I have voiced my disliking for Phoenix. Well it looks like my longing to get out of this god forsaken town are coming to life. I have long said I want to go to NAU to further my college life. That looks more and more likely now.
I spoke with someone up there and they told me that even if I don't get accepted into NAU for the spring semester, enroll at Coconino Community College and you will be at NAU for the fall semester if worse came to worse. So in other words I am moving out in about 6 and a half months. Not to be out living on my own, I will still be based at home of course, but I plan to have a residence up there, and more than likely take summer courses. So I might be looking for roommate(s) in the very near future. So my excitement level has jumped. One door has closed, well some will say slammed shut, but another has just opened. Maybe I can finally get that punk band started up in the liberal north of the state. It is what I have been joking around with for the last 8 months or so. Now it's more of a reality than ever.
Of course I have to add the nightly band update in there before I get into my "heavy stuff." Got another hit from a bassist who is interested in the same punk music as I am. He's 30, but I told him age isn't really a problem with me. After all, Mick Mars was 30 when he joined Motley Crue, so why should it be any different. I said if we can find people that are like 23 and younger it shouldn't be a problem. I did mention him my aspirations of what I want to get out of it. A band that people can rally around because of their songs. Basically writing songs that appeal to the mind and hearts of the people, and make them open their minds to the true meaning of the songs. Just like Rise Against does with many of their songs. So that's where that if at this moment. Plus I have the other band I will be trying out for in a few days, maybe Tuesday next week, or when I get back from Los Angeles. It would be a four piece and I offered my rhythm guitar ability. Go ahead and laugh.
I was going to touch on politics, but then I got side tracked. It wasn't that important. I will get mor interested in that in the coming weeks. This fall should be interesting. If the Republicans get back control. I have one word, run.-SS
I spoke with someone up there and they told me that even if I don't get accepted into NAU for the spring semester, enroll at Coconino Community College and you will be at NAU for the fall semester if worse came to worse. So in other words I am moving out in about 6 and a half months. Not to be out living on my own, I will still be based at home of course, but I plan to have a residence up there, and more than likely take summer courses. So I might be looking for roommate(s) in the very near future. So my excitement level has jumped. One door has closed, well some will say slammed shut, but another has just opened. Maybe I can finally get that punk band started up in the liberal north of the state. It is what I have been joking around with for the last 8 months or so. Now it's more of a reality than ever.
Of course I have to add the nightly band update in there before I get into my "heavy stuff." Got another hit from a bassist who is interested in the same punk music as I am. He's 30, but I told him age isn't really a problem with me. After all, Mick Mars was 30 when he joined Motley Crue, so why should it be any different. I said if we can find people that are like 23 and younger it shouldn't be a problem. I did mention him my aspirations of what I want to get out of it. A band that people can rally around because of their songs. Basically writing songs that appeal to the mind and hearts of the people, and make them open their minds to the true meaning of the songs. Just like Rise Against does with many of their songs. So that's where that if at this moment. Plus I have the other band I will be trying out for in a few days, maybe Tuesday next week, or when I get back from Los Angeles. It would be a four piece and I offered my rhythm guitar ability. Go ahead and laugh.
I was going to touch on politics, but then I got side tracked. It wasn't that important. I will get mor interested in that in the coming weeks. This fall should be interesting. If the Republicans get back control. I have one word, run.-SS
To Ones Who Shake My Hands
Then talk shit behind my back.
There is a lack of maturity in people these days. There are some that I can understand, because they find amusement in it because well, it's funny. Then there are the people that just won't mature. Why, because they are afraid to face the cold dark reality of life and how they are so miserably failing at it. Life for you may have been less than kind, but you can take a number and stand in line. You aren't what the world revolves around, you just aren't that much of a factor for really anyone.
When I walked away from my band, I left after I gave Tony an ultimatum, and well it wasn;t the one that was best for the band. The only person I have really any regret leaving with those guys is Darren. I hope he eventually will see what I saw in what was going on in the band, and causing me to walk away. Peacefully at first, but some subtle things are causing my blood to boil. I really have nothing personal against Darren, Tony or Dan. They were not much of a factor of me walking. They all pulled their weight around the band for the most part. Dan came up from Tucson and did what he had to with his stuff. Unfortunately Darren had to get Tony who never gave Darren gas money, which wasn't a big problem, I thought it was a little wrong, but it was a side thing. Then you have the person that erked my nerves the most Shawn.
Someone who always asked for someone else to take his gear off stage, and set it up for him. Same thing would happen at practice. He for the most part would boss Tony around and tell him to do everything. Then you have the bitching, and moaning about feeling tired and sick, but then a few minuets later wanting to go out and drink. He once told a friend of mine who was trying to get him to come chill out with us, and we had some alcohol, "it's not enough to get me drunk." That my friend is a sign of an alcoholic. I like booze, but I don't really like to drink to get drunk, I am very content drinking Jack and coke all night and getting a good buzz on and that's it. Now to the point where I am staggering around like a buffoon. At practice he would really lead us away from what we were doing so we can meet his schedule so he can go home and eat and smoke weed. This would happen at most practices. I put up with hime being high at practice, then he would get Tony high and Tony is out there enough as it is, get him high, he gets annoying as hell.
This is a story that I'm not the only one that found thsi fucked up. My birthday this year, went over to Nack's place and right around the time we started drinking, there was an accident. Tony jumped up and knocked over Shawn's class pipe. He preceded to go ape shit crazy over the pipe breaking. Ot was a total accident, and he scolds Tony as if he took it and purposely broke it. What was a good night because crappy right away. It was my birthday, and all of a sudden he had to make it all about him because his damn pot pipe broke. Then a few weeks later I accidentally broke one of Nack's shot glasses, he didn't freak out. I honestly felt bad for doing it, but told me not to worry about it.
If you wanna talk about someone that is going to go no where with their life, it would have to be him. He was dragging the band down and I got out of there before I got caught up in the mess that it was going to become. If it wasn't for me asking him to be in the band he would be absolutely no where. I pulled his ass out of a funk he had after he was having a hard time with an ex-girlfriend.You wouldn't be in a band if it wasn't for me. Now to the point you taking band photos I took of us and you are photoshoping me out of the pictures. You are really going to get like that with this, it is one of those moments it's like, "seriously?!" I could say shit on her to embarrass myself. What do you have, how I booked every show, how I got us every any kind of hook-up that we got. It wasn't much, but I still got us stuff. I did the stuff that isn't seen by most people. If I was a real band manager, you would have been gone months ago.
If you wanna say something about me, go a head. Who are you going to impress, no one. I have my dignity and I have my pride. I know what I did for that band, and what you didn't. I never have treated my friends like shit like you do, or take advantage of them like you do. If you treated me like you treat Tony, you would have a huge black eye. I'm not going to loose sleep over it. I have nothing against the other 3 guys in the band. I wish I didn't have to leave, but it is for the best. I regret bringing you back into a band with me. You once again destroyed another band.
And if you really believed my threat that I might re-form the band. Think again. Ripp Tyde is a name for history. It is going to be like my Baxter. A band that did a little something, and then I moved on to better things. I want the name, and the myspace page used as a page to see what a band some people might know about did.
Good luck doing nothing but sitting in your room smoking weed, and thinking that you are hot shit and above everyone else you know. If a singer that might want to join up with him, I advise you. It may not start the way I am saying, but it will eventually get that way. Until later-SS
There is a lack of maturity in people these days. There are some that I can understand, because they find amusement in it because well, it's funny. Then there are the people that just won't mature. Why, because they are afraid to face the cold dark reality of life and how they are so miserably failing at it. Life for you may have been less than kind, but you can take a number and stand in line. You aren't what the world revolves around, you just aren't that much of a factor for really anyone.
When I walked away from my band, I left after I gave Tony an ultimatum, and well it wasn;t the one that was best for the band. The only person I have really any regret leaving with those guys is Darren. I hope he eventually will see what I saw in what was going on in the band, and causing me to walk away. Peacefully at first, but some subtle things are causing my blood to boil. I really have nothing personal against Darren, Tony or Dan. They were not much of a factor of me walking. They all pulled their weight around the band for the most part. Dan came up from Tucson and did what he had to with his stuff. Unfortunately Darren had to get Tony who never gave Darren gas money, which wasn't a big problem, I thought it was a little wrong, but it was a side thing. Then you have the person that erked my nerves the most Shawn.
Someone who always asked for someone else to take his gear off stage, and set it up for him. Same thing would happen at practice. He for the most part would boss Tony around and tell him to do everything. Then you have the bitching, and moaning about feeling tired and sick, but then a few minuets later wanting to go out and drink. He once told a friend of mine who was trying to get him to come chill out with us, and we had some alcohol, "it's not enough to get me drunk." That my friend is a sign of an alcoholic. I like booze, but I don't really like to drink to get drunk, I am very content drinking Jack and coke all night and getting a good buzz on and that's it. Now to the point where I am staggering around like a buffoon. At practice he would really lead us away from what we were doing so we can meet his schedule so he can go home and eat and smoke weed. This would happen at most practices. I put up with hime being high at practice, then he would get Tony high and Tony is out there enough as it is, get him high, he gets annoying as hell.
This is a story that I'm not the only one that found thsi fucked up. My birthday this year, went over to Nack's place and right around the time we started drinking, there was an accident. Tony jumped up and knocked over Shawn's class pipe. He preceded to go ape shit crazy over the pipe breaking. Ot was a total accident, and he scolds Tony as if he took it and purposely broke it. What was a good night because crappy right away. It was my birthday, and all of a sudden he had to make it all about him because his damn pot pipe broke. Then a few weeks later I accidentally broke one of Nack's shot glasses, he didn't freak out. I honestly felt bad for doing it, but told me not to worry about it.
If you wanna talk about someone that is going to go no where with their life, it would have to be him. He was dragging the band down and I got out of there before I got caught up in the mess that it was going to become. If it wasn't for me asking him to be in the band he would be absolutely no where. I pulled his ass out of a funk he had after he was having a hard time with an ex-girlfriend.You wouldn't be in a band if it wasn't for me. Now to the point you taking band photos I took of us and you are photoshoping me out of the pictures. You are really going to get like that with this, it is one of those moments it's like, "seriously?!" I could say shit on her to embarrass myself. What do you have, how I booked every show, how I got us every any kind of hook-up that we got. It wasn't much, but I still got us stuff. I did the stuff that isn't seen by most people. If I was a real band manager, you would have been gone months ago.
If you wanna say something about me, go a head. Who are you going to impress, no one. I have my dignity and I have my pride. I know what I did for that band, and what you didn't. I never have treated my friends like shit like you do, or take advantage of them like you do. If you treated me like you treat Tony, you would have a huge black eye. I'm not going to loose sleep over it. I have nothing against the other 3 guys in the band. I wish I didn't have to leave, but it is for the best. I regret bringing you back into a band with me. You once again destroyed another band.
And if you really believed my threat that I might re-form the band. Think again. Ripp Tyde is a name for history. It is going to be like my Baxter. A band that did a little something, and then I moved on to better things. I want the name, and the myspace page used as a page to see what a band some people might know about did.
Good luck doing nothing but sitting in your room smoking weed, and thinking that you are hot shit and above everyone else you know. If a singer that might want to join up with him, I advise you. It may not start the way I am saying, but it will eventually get that way. Until later-SS
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Said The Boys No Good
I actually do remember what I was talking about. The random mix CD's that I found the other day. I just feel like talking about those because, tomorrow is the one year mark that I last saw her. I really don't care about her anymore, but this CD brought her memory back to mind. I advise you, anyone that had a bad past relationship, don't forget it. The best we can do is embrace our memories and experiences. Those who try to block it out will be doomed to repeat themselves. That's why I'm not afraid to deal with the thought of her anymore.
For most people that know me, they know the story about what happened between me and Kyle in 2008. Not a good story, and there was no Hollywood Ending. She gave me something when I was up there, tow mix CD's. I had listened to them once, and then never again. I remember actually finding one in Dec '08, and flinging the CD across the room and hitting my Foo Fighter poster and actually leaving a mark in the poster. That's where it remained until the other night.
I was straightening up my room when I came across one of the mix CD's. Instead of getting rid of the CD I looked at it and was like, what the hell, it can't hurt me. Looked at the track listing she had gave me, I noticed something very strange. The list of 4 bands that I have since started listening to. Those bands are, Rise Against, Strike Anywhere, Riverboat Gamblers, and Sum 41. I have since started listening to all of those bands since 2008. All on my own too. I knew who Rise Against from the radio and that's what got me into them, I noticed "The Good Left Undone" in what was The Edge 103.9. Then "Prayer of the Refugee" and downloaded some of their songs and became addicted. It creeped the hell out of me seeing those bands on that track listing. The fact that I'm evolving my music taste more, and more like her every day. Totally subliminally too. She's not to blame for my taste in music. I am. Maybe she saw too much of her self in me, and that was another thing. I'll never know.
That was my weird-out for the month. It was a interesting one to say the least.
On the note of my band search. I am getting closer, and closer to finding a band. I've kind of slowed my looking, but still have my eye out. I was going to go check out a band jamming tonight, but I have to be up early in the morning and had some other stuff to do. I'll figure out when they're available again so I can go down there. They were looking someone 18-28. I have no idea what their ages are, but I'll take it. Looking to do a melodic hardcore punk project, but I'll take a straight forward rock project too. I think these guys might wind up more and more like a cross between maybe Buckcherry, and Rise Against if I join. Their influences were out there, not exactly what I was looking for.
Lets talk sports for a second.
I am a huge baseball fan, particular the National League. They finally won an all star game. I literally do not remember the last time the senior circuit won the game. Last time they won was in 1996 in Colorado. I do NOT remember that. I went to my first baseball game in 1995, a Mets Phillies game at Shea Stadium. I was 6 years old. I'm not 20. That a long time. We could also talk about the death of "The Boss" George Steinbrener. In a way I believe he destroyed baseball and made the payroll almost more important than what is going on on the field. It's sad for Yankee fans, and I cannot say anything bad about George. I just don't like teh Yanks. Anyways.
I'm done for tonight. I have an early class tomorrow.-SS
For most people that know me, they know the story about what happened between me and Kyle in 2008. Not a good story, and there was no Hollywood Ending. She gave me something when I was up there, tow mix CD's. I had listened to them once, and then never again. I remember actually finding one in Dec '08, and flinging the CD across the room and hitting my Foo Fighter poster and actually leaving a mark in the poster. That's where it remained until the other night.
I was straightening up my room when I came across one of the mix CD's. Instead of getting rid of the CD I looked at it and was like, what the hell, it can't hurt me. Looked at the track listing she had gave me, I noticed something very strange. The list of 4 bands that I have since started listening to. Those bands are, Rise Against, Strike Anywhere, Riverboat Gamblers, and Sum 41. I have since started listening to all of those bands since 2008. All on my own too. I knew who Rise Against from the radio and that's what got me into them, I noticed "The Good Left Undone" in what was The Edge 103.9. Then "Prayer of the Refugee" and downloaded some of their songs and became addicted. It creeped the hell out of me seeing those bands on that track listing. The fact that I'm evolving my music taste more, and more like her every day. Totally subliminally too. She's not to blame for my taste in music. I am. Maybe she saw too much of her self in me, and that was another thing. I'll never know.
That was my weird-out for the month. It was a interesting one to say the least.
On the note of my band search. I am getting closer, and closer to finding a band. I've kind of slowed my looking, but still have my eye out. I was going to go check out a band jamming tonight, but I have to be up early in the morning and had some other stuff to do. I'll figure out when they're available again so I can go down there. They were looking someone 18-28. I have no idea what their ages are, but I'll take it. Looking to do a melodic hardcore punk project, but I'll take a straight forward rock project too. I think these guys might wind up more and more like a cross between maybe Buckcherry, and Rise Against if I join. Their influences were out there, not exactly what I was looking for.
Lets talk sports for a second.
I am a huge baseball fan, particular the National League. They finally won an all star game. I literally do not remember the last time the senior circuit won the game. Last time they won was in 1996 in Colorado. I do NOT remember that. I went to my first baseball game in 1995, a Mets Phillies game at Shea Stadium. I was 6 years old. I'm not 20. That a long time. We could also talk about the death of "The Boss" George Steinbrener. In a way I believe he destroyed baseball and made the payroll almost more important than what is going on on the field. It's sad for Yankee fans, and I cannot say anything bad about George. I just don't like teh Yanks. Anyways.
I'm done for tonight. I have an early class tomorrow.-SS
I Know Not Your Sorrow
Got some interesting feedback tonight. Spoke to a guy about joining a band. He told me he was a drummer that was 37, but had recruited a guitarist that was 23, and was looking for a singer. We also spoke about ambitions and ideas for a band. Not only that he was telling me about his tour stories from the past, and about how he has hook ups to get in with a Crue tour next year. The thing that really caught my ear was he is trying to get Mike Muir to let him open a ST tattoo shop in the Valley. The guys is from Venice Beach so this doesn't sound that weird. Sounds interesting tough. Going to see where this is going to go. Hopes aren't high, but it is a start. He was also telling me how right now singers are really tough to find. Makes me feel a little better. It's one of a few.
I think it's funny. I'm pretty sure this blog is being stalked. Which I find really funny, that someone out there really has that much time to come here and read my thoughts. I should just start writing about rainbows and farts. I think looking insane will be a good thing to read about? If you want to pick my brain go for it, but you will find nothing good here. I have a lot to say, and I'm not going to be shy about it. It may be brash, cruel, or just stupid. I'm going to take the ladder, or just stupid. Would this reader like me to start cramming big words in here, Antidisestablishmentarianism, or Pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis. Hope those are good. Totally unrelated. One is political, and the other is a medical... Thing.... Done with that for now.
Just like James I was drinking Irish tonight. Hung out with a friend and kicked back a Guinness, and stammered on about nothing at all. Who needs to get drunk to have fun, especially when you have such sites like Meme Generator, and 4Chan. Amusement for the sober mind for hours, and hours. It got me think about the Against Me! concert that I'm not going to on Thursday. I guess it is a sacrifice that I am going to have to make if I plan on going to Epicenter Festival in September. For some reason I heard that Against Me! might be on the bill. So it might just be a wash if that is the case.
I was thinking earlier about how I might have saved my ass by leaving the band. My gut never tells me wrong, sometimes I take to long to listen to it. I mean it was time for change, just like the song goes. "Now something has kept me here too long, and now I'm gone." I was driven straight into the ground at times, and had trouble sleeping because of the thoughts I had traversing in my head. From when Mike and Matt were in the band, all the way to the last day I was in it. My worries have departed from me, thank god. I have slept restless and without worry for the first time in a long time.
Had a job interview today. Went well, pretty confident that I got it. Just need to wait the 7-10 days fro drug screenings and background checks to go through. I just hope they don't find all that crack in my system, or meth, or heroin. Or those 300 unpaid parking tickets. Doubt it. It should pass on a more serious not though. I need it. I do need some form of income especially if I am making plans to move up to NAU/Flagstaff. Yes, I said move. I actually might consider a move for the two to two and a half years I might have to go there. Money would kind of be needed for that. I hate Phoenix, and I don't know why I think a move to a small town would be more interesting. I'm actually considering waiting to really press hard for a band until I make that jump.
One of these nights I need to talk about that weird mix CD that I found the other day. I'm just too damn lazy, and need to go to sleep to talk about it right now. My ramblings will continue tomorrow. Maybe a lyric, or two. Who the fuck knows. To sleep, and jager!-SS
I think it's funny. I'm pretty sure this blog is being stalked. Which I find really funny, that someone out there really has that much time to come here and read my thoughts. I should just start writing about rainbows and farts. I think looking insane will be a good thing to read about? If you want to pick my brain go for it, but you will find nothing good here. I have a lot to say, and I'm not going to be shy about it. It may be brash, cruel, or just stupid. I'm going to take the ladder, or just stupid. Would this reader like me to start cramming big words in here, Antidisestablishmentarianism, or Pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis. Hope those are good. Totally unrelated. One is political, and the other is a medical... Thing.... Done with that for now.
Just like James I was drinking Irish tonight. Hung out with a friend and kicked back a Guinness, and stammered on about nothing at all. Who needs to get drunk to have fun, especially when you have such sites like Meme Generator, and 4Chan. Amusement for the sober mind for hours, and hours. It got me think about the Against Me! concert that I'm not going to on Thursday. I guess it is a sacrifice that I am going to have to make if I plan on going to Epicenter Festival in September. For some reason I heard that Against Me! might be on the bill. So it might just be a wash if that is the case.
I was thinking earlier about how I might have saved my ass by leaving the band. My gut never tells me wrong, sometimes I take to long to listen to it. I mean it was time for change, just like the song goes. "Now something has kept me here too long, and now I'm gone." I was driven straight into the ground at times, and had trouble sleeping because of the thoughts I had traversing in my head. From when Mike and Matt were in the band, all the way to the last day I was in it. My worries have departed from me, thank god. I have slept restless and without worry for the first time in a long time.
Had a job interview today. Went well, pretty confident that I got it. Just need to wait the 7-10 days fro drug screenings and background checks to go through. I just hope they don't find all that crack in my system, or meth, or heroin. Or those 300 unpaid parking tickets. Doubt it. It should pass on a more serious not though. I need it. I do need some form of income especially if I am making plans to move up to NAU/Flagstaff. Yes, I said move. I actually might consider a move for the two to two and a half years I might have to go there. Money would kind of be needed for that. I hate Phoenix, and I don't know why I think a move to a small town would be more interesting. I'm actually considering waiting to really press hard for a band until I make that jump.
One of these nights I need to talk about that weird mix CD that I found the other day. I'm just too damn lazy, and need to go to sleep to talk about it right now. My ramblings will continue tomorrow. Maybe a lyric, or two. Who the fuck knows. To sleep, and jager!-SS
Sunday, July 11, 2010
What Was Is Always The Same
After one day of searching for bands, I have gotten some interest from the real world. Nothing that has been really enticing. I am going to my brothers band practice tomorrow to check it out. No clue what to expect from it, could be anything. That is the base that I am jumping from, so if things don't pan out soon. I will have at least found a new band for the time being.
Today I got a realization that me leaving the band was the best decision for me. I know they are going no where, and that is why I decided to leave. I wasn't going to let that band drag me down. What my new evil little plan is going to be is reform that band in maybe 3 or 4 months with a totally new line-up behind me. Of course I am going behind their backs. This would happen if I couldn't get another band going. The band was really my doing for the last 2 years, so I think I ultimately have the final word on the band. I would prefer not to go back there though. I also still think that they are expecting me to come back. I'm not.
This blog will get more interesting as time goes on. I will have more insight on what is going on in the world with politics and other life aspects. Right now you can call it kind of boring. Well see what will happen.-SS
Today I got a realization that me leaving the band was the best decision for me. I know they are going no where, and that is why I decided to leave. I wasn't going to let that band drag me down. What my new evil little plan is going to be is reform that band in maybe 3 or 4 months with a totally new line-up behind me. Of course I am going behind their backs. This would happen if I couldn't get another band going. The band was really my doing for the last 2 years, so I think I ultimately have the final word on the band. I would prefer not to go back there though. I also still think that they are expecting me to come back. I'm not.
This blog will get more interesting as time goes on. I will have more insight on what is going on in the world with politics and other life aspects. Right now you can call it kind of boring. Well see what will happen.-SS
Break Through The Silence
As all good things must come to an end, so did the band I was just in. What I basically did today was put down the dying animal that was Ripp Tyde. The last 3 months have been riddled with problems none of the members nor I wanted to face. One of the big things was we have no money. None of the members had jobs, and only one other person besides me was making an actual effort to fund the recording. We had figured an album, which was our original plan would cost us $1,000, and that mean $200 a member. Eventually I had to cut that down to about $140 a member due to some members saying they couldn't get that much money. Then it went from an album, to another five song EP. Every band in AZ does EP, and they always fail. Look at what we did with our first EP. Nothing. It was a go big or go home mentality when we started, but now we were accepting less as more and bring very satisfied with it. This frustrated me dearly. I saw this chance as the only possible one we may get to record an album. I wanted to take it while it was there, because it might have just passed us up if we didn't take it.
When it came down to the money, this is what really got me. It was Tony who got me to lower the price down to $140 so he could afford it. Then Shawn stepped forward saying he had no way to get that kind of money, meanwhile he spends cash on cigarettes every weekend, normally 1 or two packs. Do the math per month, $10 a weekend, that $40 a month. The weekend following Warped Tour we decide to go from an album, to another 5 song EP. Why because of money. Now we were lowering the price per member again. Tony wanted to throw in about $90, and suggested I may have even over estimated on the recording budget in the first place, and Shawn was going to throw in about $55 according to what he said. Tony told me he had about $840 in savings, and told me that the $140 was great. No what does he do with that $840, gives guitar lessons once a week, and buys meaningless books. Doesn't want to invest into the band. I was still going to put $200 in, Darren had his part, Dan I don't think he would have made it.
My last ditch effort to try and persuade them to go back to their original plan came today. I basically stated that, it's album or bust because we have seen what an EP can do. They basically were adamant about not being able to conjure up the money and I then walked out and left.
It wasn't just this that had me wanting to leave the band. The maturity level of the band was so low. I mean, it was bad. We acted more like 12 year old at times, when we needed to really act our age. We had three anti-socials in Tony, Shawn, and Darren. Which does not bode well for being in a band. Dan was in his own little party world, and meanwhile I am stuck between the real world and a delusional rock n' roll dream that did have some legs at times. I couldn't take it, also the claims of intellectualness by Tony, just because you read all the time doesn't make you an intellectual, you have to pay attention to the real world dude. Shawn's constant complaining thinking that he was the most important person in the band, and the band had to revolve around his health woes in practice and not. Darren and Dan never complained. Darren I believe was the only other one driven in the band to do something. I lost faith in that though after he told me about 6 weeks ago he wanted to do something else.
Now here I am, the one that wants to really do something spectacular with this band surrounded by people that were less than motivated. Tony was the one that told me that they were all of a sudden not motivated to do a full length record. So my motivation was now long gone. What did I do the last two weeks I was in the band. Didn't go to teh studio with them to play with controls in studio, and left practices early. Why stay for something I no longer want to do.
This had been brewing for about the last 8 weeks or so. It actually goes as far back as March. I really was thinking of doing this sometime back there. I waited too long I think. I was not having fun with the band anymore. It felt weird to be in it. This was the right move, The last two year of being in Ripp Tyde have been hell. I think about all the bad things that have happened to me since joining this band in June of 2008. In a way things were almost down hill from there in that year.
It's time for a new band, and I am out on the hunt. I'm hoping I can find some dedicated people that aren't going to take it as a joke. I didn't, but they did. Until next time..-SS.
When it came down to the money, this is what really got me. It was Tony who got me to lower the price down to $140 so he could afford it. Then Shawn stepped forward saying he had no way to get that kind of money, meanwhile he spends cash on cigarettes every weekend, normally 1 or two packs. Do the math per month, $10 a weekend, that $40 a month. The weekend following Warped Tour we decide to go from an album, to another 5 song EP. Why because of money. Now we were lowering the price per member again. Tony wanted to throw in about $90, and suggested I may have even over estimated on the recording budget in the first place, and Shawn was going to throw in about $55 according to what he said. Tony told me he had about $840 in savings, and told me that the $140 was great. No what does he do with that $840, gives guitar lessons once a week, and buys meaningless books. Doesn't want to invest into the band. I was still going to put $200 in, Darren had his part, Dan I don't think he would have made it.
My last ditch effort to try and persuade them to go back to their original plan came today. I basically stated that, it's album or bust because we have seen what an EP can do. They basically were adamant about not being able to conjure up the money and I then walked out and left.
It wasn't just this that had me wanting to leave the band. The maturity level of the band was so low. I mean, it was bad. We acted more like 12 year old at times, when we needed to really act our age. We had three anti-socials in Tony, Shawn, and Darren. Which does not bode well for being in a band. Dan was in his own little party world, and meanwhile I am stuck between the real world and a delusional rock n' roll dream that did have some legs at times. I couldn't take it, also the claims of intellectualness by Tony, just because you read all the time doesn't make you an intellectual, you have to pay attention to the real world dude. Shawn's constant complaining thinking that he was the most important person in the band, and the band had to revolve around his health woes in practice and not. Darren and Dan never complained. Darren I believe was the only other one driven in the band to do something. I lost faith in that though after he told me about 6 weeks ago he wanted to do something else.
Now here I am, the one that wants to really do something spectacular with this band surrounded by people that were less than motivated. Tony was the one that told me that they were all of a sudden not motivated to do a full length record. So my motivation was now long gone. What did I do the last two weeks I was in the band. Didn't go to teh studio with them to play with controls in studio, and left practices early. Why stay for something I no longer want to do.
This had been brewing for about the last 8 weeks or so. It actually goes as far back as March. I really was thinking of doing this sometime back there. I waited too long I think. I was not having fun with the band anymore. It felt weird to be in it. This was the right move, The last two year of being in Ripp Tyde have been hell. I think about all the bad things that have happened to me since joining this band in June of 2008. In a way things were almost down hill from there in that year.
It's time for a new band, and I am out on the hunt. I'm hoping I can find some dedicated people that aren't going to take it as a joke. I didn't, but they did. Until next time..-SS.
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