Then talk shit behind my back.
There is a lack of maturity in people these days. There are some that I can understand, because they find amusement in it because well, it's funny. Then there are the people that just won't mature. Why, because they are afraid to face the cold dark reality of life and how they are so miserably failing at it. Life for you may have been less than kind, but you can take a number and stand in line. You aren't what the world revolves around, you just aren't that much of a factor for really anyone.
When I walked away from my band, I left after I gave Tony an ultimatum, and well it wasn;t the one that was best for the band. The only person I have really any regret leaving with those guys is Darren. I hope he eventually will see what I saw in what was going on in the band, and causing me to walk away. Peacefully at first, but some subtle things are causing my blood to boil. I really have nothing personal against Darren, Tony or Dan. They were not much of a factor of me walking. They all pulled their weight around the band for the most part. Dan came up from Tucson and did what he had to with his stuff. Unfortunately Darren had to get Tony who never gave Darren gas money, which wasn't a big problem, I thought it was a little wrong, but it was a side thing. Then you have the person that erked my nerves the most Shawn.
Someone who always asked for someone else to take his gear off stage, and set it up for him. Same thing would happen at practice. He for the most part would boss Tony around and tell him to do everything. Then you have the bitching, and moaning about feeling tired and sick, but then a few minuets later wanting to go out and drink. He once told a friend of mine who was trying to get him to come chill out with us, and we had some alcohol, "it's not enough to get me drunk." That my friend is a sign of an alcoholic. I like booze, but I don't really like to drink to get drunk, I am very content drinking Jack and coke all night and getting a good buzz on and that's it. Now to the point where I am staggering around like a buffoon. At practice he would really lead us away from what we were doing so we can meet his schedule so he can go home and eat and smoke weed. This would happen at most practices. I put up with hime being high at practice, then he would get Tony high and Tony is out there enough as it is, get him high, he gets annoying as hell.
This is a story that I'm not the only one that found thsi fucked up. My birthday this year, went over to Nack's place and right around the time we started drinking, there was an accident. Tony jumped up and knocked over Shawn's class pipe. He preceded to go ape shit crazy over the pipe breaking. Ot was a total accident, and he scolds Tony as if he took it and purposely broke it. What was a good night because crappy right away. It was my birthday, and all of a sudden he had to make it all about him because his damn pot pipe broke. Then a few weeks later I accidentally broke one of Nack's shot glasses, he didn't freak out. I honestly felt bad for doing it, but told me not to worry about it.
If you wanna talk about someone that is going to go no where with their life, it would have to be him. He was dragging the band down and I got out of there before I got caught up in the mess that it was going to become. If it wasn't for me asking him to be in the band he would be absolutely no where. I pulled his ass out of a funk he had after he was having a hard time with an ex-girlfriend.You wouldn't be in a band if it wasn't for me. Now to the point you taking band photos I took of us and you are photoshoping me out of the pictures. You are really going to get like that with this, it is one of those moments it's like, "seriously?!" I could say shit on her to embarrass myself. What do you have, how I booked every show, how I got us every any kind of hook-up that we got. It wasn't much, but I still got us stuff. I did the stuff that isn't seen by most people. If I was a real band manager, you would have been gone months ago.
If you wanna say something about me, go a head. Who are you going to impress, no one. I have my dignity and I have my pride. I know what I did for that band, and what you didn't. I never have treated my friends like shit like you do, or take advantage of them like you do. If you treated me like you treat Tony, you would have a huge black eye. I'm not going to loose sleep over it. I have nothing against the other 3 guys in the band. I wish I didn't have to leave, but it is for the best. I regret bringing you back into a band with me. You once again destroyed another band.
And if you really believed my threat that I might re-form the band. Think again. Ripp Tyde is a name for history. It is going to be like my Baxter. A band that did a little something, and then I moved on to better things. I want the name, and the myspace page used as a page to see what a band some people might know about did.
Good luck doing nothing but sitting in your room smoking weed, and thinking that you are hot shit and above everyone else you know. If a singer that might want to join up with him, I advise you. It may not start the way I am saying, but it will eventually get that way. Until later-SS
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